raya pixies:)

ive known these people since i was 15

otw to tok's house

hurryyy..the photog wont wait for us:P

selendang raya:)

cornflakes coated chocolate

cornflakes coated chocolate with nuts




the raya stories will be posted later eh..im wayy tired to think of words.just got back to kuantan to be exact:).see u tmrow:)

tag raya:P

Berapa pasang baju raya anda tahun ini dan kaler apakah?
2+1, dua yang saya tempah, lagi satu saya bantai beli di klsentral sebab ia ada manik manik.saya suka glemer di pagi raya.semuanya bercorak batik supaya senang dilenjan ke opis pada setiap hari kamis.

Apakah makanan raya tradisional kegemaran anda?
serunding cikgu inson dan ayam masak merah pedas makan dengan ketupat dawun palas.setahun sekali je jumpa semua ni.

Apakah biskut raya kegemaran anda?
saya suka conflake cekelat yang saya buat dengan aten.manis manis n rasa cekelat yg melimpah ruah (promote tak hingat!).selain itu saya juga suka makan semperit ceri merah dan tat nanas.

Berapa banyak duit raya anda dapat n spend untuk bagi kepada budak-budak?
saya sudah bekerja jadi saya tidak dpt duwet raya.tahun lepas saya bagi rm3 je sebab sengkek tade bonus.tahun ni macam lebih skit(kurang periksa..mungkin sama je.ehhehe).saya teringin dapat duwet raya lagi tapi sedar saya dah kertu tak sesuai dapat duwet raya.(saya akan cuba buat rayuan kepada ibu bapa saya)

Apakah aktiviti malam raya korang?
malam raya saya layan apek gitu gitu raya2006 di tibi tiga sambil carik ayam untuk buat serunding.

Apakah lagu raya terbaik korang?
saya layan je semua lagu raya.katanya main sekali setahun je.jadi..layannnnnnnn

preraya pixies!

flyin chillies, the gardens

pineapple fried rice, flying chillies, the gardens

the menu

my pineapple fried rice, in comparison...at absolute thai (absolutely no boat of pineapple here!)

sahur session at copycatcafe

rm8 burger for sahur anyone?

the day when shopping was a hassle

cant believe that there cud be throng of people who prefer having their shopping done at the very last minutes!moi included ...actually.we went to pkns on saturday, in the hope to get our baju raya.DUN EVER DREAM OF IT!!serious tak sanggup!there were too many people u cudnt even barely see the baju hangin.gosh...!!!so, we headed to midvalley instead, since ina was having her bowling tournament.now that is another prob.hunting a place to eat.close of being fed up with the condition(just imagine that we were still standing scouting for eateries while people started to fill the restaurant they made the booking.so aten made a suggestion to head to gardens instead, n her choice of place is this thai restaurant called flyin chillies (much to my amazement since i went to the similar eatery in ikano with aten the day before, it just that the later is called absolute thai).bloated with food, we moved to kl sentral aten told us that kl sentral got these shoplots for baju raya too.now, tis is what i called as a last minute shopping spree.... i only got about less than an hour to get my baju raya since the lots close at 930pm,nasib baik dapat jugak!!ehhehehe..and on sunday we boarded our flight back to perlis.so as i am writing this out, i am finally restin from the duty of cleanin the house, baking cookies and making myself bz with the cats.hahahaha.well then, in case i dun get the chance to log on to my blog tomorrow, here's the wish..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA DARI HUJUNG RAMBUT KE HUJUNG KAKI.MAAF ZAHIR BATIN DARIPADA SAYA YANG SERBA ADA KELEMAHAN INI.:)

my bitterness and sarcasm will be continued after raya ye...

versus!

i found this on the net, n i have the answers for every things u guys say here.:)

The Man Rules ..... At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down, Finally , the guys' side of the story. (I must admit, it's pretty good.) We always hear "the rules" From the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules! Please note.. these are all numbered "1 " > ON PURPOSE!
1. Men are NOT mind readers. -yes, tat is why we have to keep on feeding your brain

2. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down. -we leave it down since we dun wanna see ur poo poos floating.oh that, if you dont know the meaning of 'flushing'

3. Sunday sports It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. -sunday is the day when we have the whole day to go manja manja, pampered you guys like a greek god or sth. well now we take it back since u dun need it anyway

4. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way. -yes it is!it works on your feet and hand muscle..providing you are wearing 2 inches of heels!

5. Crying is blackmail. -just becoz u guys gonna be called as a wimp if u cry then do go blaming us when we use the sole weapon to survive:)

6. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it! . Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question. -if we ask a prada and louboutin on the feet, we dont expect a NO, no?

7. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for. -that's why man make the worst counsellor.PERIOD.

8. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days. -that's it, if u can recall what we said yesterday, much more to what happened 6 months back.ha ha.

9. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us. -we ask you coz u keep on comparing us to the skinny b****es on the runway.if u care to shut ur mouth then we dun bother to ask.

10. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one -and this comes from a species who claim they are not a mind reader?how can we tell you then?

11. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.-we try to act frail.we respect ur ego:)

12. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.. -we have to go make ur godamn cup of tea or coffee or milo or whatever u desire during that commercial!where got time to say anythin meh?

13. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we. -who says we give u direction?we just give u support with a lil bit of instruction just to get things done the right way:)

14. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is. -and we have no idea why a bunch of men running against a ball within a period of time.that u call a sport?

15. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that. -we itch too, we just dun go PUBLIC DISPLAY

16. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle. -what if we say yes and pouring you all the matter?would u even care to sit and listen to us for 2 hours, maybe?heck, you even only talk during commercials!

17. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.-and we dun expect you to say you love us and yet fooling around with nother women even for a mere whistling and catcalling!

18. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really . -then why do u keep on glancing on our butt?breast?stomach?and make faces to show your disapproving look?

19. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as soccer or racing.-we are prepared.u just dun wanna give us a try.trust us.we have palin and condolezza rice in each of us.

20. You have enough clothes.-and you have enough cds collection and jersey and sneakers and cigarretes and cars .we dun complain.

21. You have too many shoes. -but yet we have to find the right one, righttttt?????

22. I am in shape. Round IS a shape! -we know..we know..that's why we keep on ogling on brad pitt till now:)

. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.-and yes..please count the couch as ur permanent crib too for now:)

ahhaha..how's that in return?

pocoyo:)

emot is my bestie's son.i always tell acik that she is one lucky mummy to have this ladies man by her side now.well, she endured pain (to say figuratively n literally ...) to be given aemir zikry.how that 2 years are all its worth:) .i cant really put in words how much this means to her.but i just know:). il auntie lo ama, pocoyo!!

bon apetit

otw to east coast

tis gonna be the final week i would be spending ramadan with my buddies esp aciko.let see..so far we have raid swan, delifrance, kenny rogers,more of swan, affa the tak sedap lansung steamboat restaurant and most of it are the cooking session at home.so, today...acik and i choose sth different...

which is...

SUSHI!mine was the piri piri chicken with rice n miso soup plus the sushi with shredded chicken mayo, while acik got the variation of sushis and set of fish.the orders made by us yang tak pose.hahahahha..the regular cycle anyway..dun blame us!

tomorrow...it's gonna be another break fast session:)

an hour assignment

cilok this from zyerila's blog.sowie baby..kak ol kinda bored n not sleepy (thanks to 2 cans of nescafe i drank today!sheeshhh......

Starting time : 2339 pm
Name : oling wolie suhaida
Sisters : eena n miububu
Brothers : paen
Shoe size : standard size 6
Height : near hobbit..150s cm
Where do you live : the KKK (kuantan/kl/kangar .that's it..if u good enuff to figure it out)
Have you ever Been on a plane : yeah..i love the flight food anyway.haha
Swam in the ocean : dun really fancy gettin the sand into my pants
Fallen asleep at school : cant!moi students would point me out.where to put the face maa...???
Broken someone’s heart : reverse the question pleaseee?
Fell off your chair : never kot..nahhh..i cud be clumsy n absentminded.so the probability is there.kui kui kui..
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : N.O
Saved e-mails : YES!
What is your room like : i loike my room.ada cadar bunga bunga, ada lembu, ada pokok..mcm serene je.cewahhhh
What is the last thing you ate : sweet sour ikan siakap yg tasteless.
Ever had Chicken pox : cant remember this one.maybe not.
Sore throat :no
Stitches : yes:)i saw it bein sewn on the shin.
Broken nose : nooooooo
Do you blieve in love at first sight : sumtimes i do.but a sight alone can be wrong..u need to hear, touch, smell n taste (taste..???hahahha..)
Like picnics : if picnic like packed sardine sandwich n cheap cordial, boringggg!!
Who was were the last person u danced with : wayyyyyy back then...i tink its eena.
Last made you smile : emot mot
Today did you talk to someone you like : siapa?
Kissed anyone : emot mot
Talk to an ex :WHAT for?
Miss someone : moi 10 years back..crazier n 'bitch'ier
Who do you really hate: ultimate cheater.well honestly, i dun hate people.how much i even try to hate, then i hate to try
Do you like your hand-writing :so n so..all roundish and bulat bulat cam buah oren
Are your toe nails painted : nope
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : is tis a sexual related question coz if it is, then it's gonna be ur bed.hahaha..
What color shirt are you wearing now : green n white babydoll top
Are you a friendly person : i am, giving me a friendly person to.i dun entertain ice queen
Do you have any pets : obviously.there got mok, jade n risotto leadin the bunch!
Do you sleep with the TV on : no..with the comp on..yes:)
What are you doing right now : completing this tag, listenin to ms spark n cramping my neck by completing the tag :P
Can you handle the truth : blatantly said by the loved ones.?then have to swallow it n succumb to the truth
Are you closer to your mother or father : both la kot.abah is more sentimental, mama lil bit garang
Do you eat healthy : healthy as if feastin on veggie?NO WAY!
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : i left it sumwhere 'unfindable'
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : moi phoebe..haha
Are you loud or quiet most of the time : depends.my loudness got volumes to it.it is adjustable.
Are you confident : sumtimes.but i chicken out for things i dun like

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1)crazy.fun.bookworm. a nerd in the making.hahahha
2)dating a guy by the name of norhisyam khamis
3)livin in hostel with this bunch of people i loved n still love(u know who u are)
4)crazy crazy matriculation year.hey english is never an easy subject okay!
5)breakin up with the guy mentioned above

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1) donate.i have one particular place where i wanna donet.in the rememberance of my dear angah, i wud donate for thos who suffer from cancer.SERIOUSLY.
2) parents.siblings. ckp je nak hape..mak cik kayooooo
3) globetrotting (new york tuh bley balik hari je la kan kan kan?)
4) shoppin like a lady gone mad!
5) emm..now i wud save some.:)

5 of my bad habits
1) superduperwuper sensitive moi is
2) cursing.amazingly ive been cured.(bet it's gonna be smirk ere!)
3) worrywart.i worry too much for the blah matters
4) i love people too much(cudnt agree more with u baby!)
5) panas baran.garang.

5 places I am living in
1) p1-t3-03
2) taman norma, kangar perlis
3) vista pinggiran putra
4) umah tok...besnyee:)
5) ................

finish time:2441 am

DONE!!!hahhahah..skang baru boleh tido!keje skolah ini dah complete.:)

f.r.i.e.n.d.s :)

...and i can't do it without my phoebe :)

pagi yang gelap

sebelum aku buat benda yang tak sepatutnya (which is mencarut of course..ye la aku kan ke pretentious......!!!!), baik aku elak dari dpat dosa kering dengan menulih skit dalam blog ni.


KOLEJ AKU NI MEMANG TAK GUNA!!APA DIA INGAT KAMI KULI BATAK HAMBA ABDI KE CUTI SEMINGGU TUH PUN KORANG HARUK NAK AMIK?PEGI MAM...(err....maafla...nak tercarut lak..)


dah la..penat la tulis dalam bahasa melayu.dah la komp ni pun cam #$%@$%#@!!!!!

on the 17th day of Ramadan...

tadaaa.......our nasik ayam on the first trial:)

nasik ayam and the murtabak maggi on the left

最後にこれは土曜日!!!!!

well..as being mentioned in my previous tag..of what ive been wanting to do this holiday, yes people..i really really woke up late.like late!about 3 pm ot sth.dasyat kan?its like paying revenge to all my sleepless n late nite sleep that i hardly have these days:).then, went out to break fast..again in swan.to our delight, there was a chinese wedding taken place in the same venue, siap layan slide show bride and groom lagi.no wonder la swan full house.one thing i noticed tho, these wedding attendees dont really care much of what they wear, so simple some even look like they just got back from kebun or sth.ehehhe..seriously!unlike malay wedding, which most of the guests fight their best to look good and dashing.ada yg overly dress up mengalahkan pengantin!went to megamal to fix my watch and off to east coast mall for a starbuck vanilla latte.since i want to cook up the storm (literally!) for a break fast session at home tomorrow, singgah jap kat giant for some cut chicken.been dreaming to savour chicken curry till now.nyummsss!!!

anonymous stupiditos

for a mentally retarded jantan/ pempuan/khunsa who kindly enuff stopping by at my page and called me keling to watever ive written here..maybe ..just maybe u dun understand simple english.and if u do,do tell me where is the f**kin connection of not believin in relationship and for being woken up by 'him' for sahur.kesian...

Anonymous said...
29. Do you have a crush?nope.i rather breath it all alone than having to endure another crushed.unlike sum people who guilt free having relationship rite after the wrecked 'ship'...im wayy not easy to believe that species again.

25. What time did you wake up this morning?ive been woken up by HIM at about 4.borak borak kejap sambung tido.515 then off to sahur
cakap mcm keling daa...
1:22 AM


apa apapun nampak sgt la laku jugak blog merapek aku nih sampai ada yg boleh highlight tuh.kui kui!!

tag yg panjang

1. Shortest relationship?
more like a fling this was..emm..about a week or two?

2. Last gift you received?
two similar mugs which ive coyly mentioned people to make it a gift.the one that i pasted on the previous posts.

3. Ever dropped a cell phone?
more like threw it on the wall:)

4. Last food you ate?
the scrumptious buka puasa session at Swan las nite

6. Last drink?
a tall glass of juicy cold watermelon juice:).

7. One favorite song?
for now..i tink JT what goes around comes around suits the mood well.

8. Where do you live?
currently hibernating in pahang.might as well as change the add for the new later:(

9. Last wedding you attended:
i dun do weddings for now.

10. Last time you saw your friend?
i see em all everyday.and the latest was last nite when we went out munching on that big fat break fast session.

11. Where is your favorite place to eat with friends?
black canyon east coast mall..up until ive been matched with this nepalese by the duo, acik n her sista.ceh dengan nepal pun jadi ke?hahahhah..

12. Can you cook?
YES.u shud try my kari ikan tenggiri.aku rasa sedapla.

13. Last time you cried?
ive stopped wasting tears.enuff said!

14. Why?
no use and what a waste cryin over stupidity n blind of eyes, eh?

15. Hate most about yourself?
when i was still in my free hair zone, i so dissed my frizzy hair i wish i cud go all britney.so now no more hating.so apa yang aku benci ye?oh yes..my in depth empathy n love which sumhow not lettin me do the justice to my life

16. Can you sing?
i can carry out a tune.

19. Do you like coffee?
i like it milky.but given a choice i wud prefer good ol nescafe classic and yes with milk :)

20. Last person who sends you a message?
aten.on the behalf of paen after i went berserk for him not answerin the phone nor replyin to any of my messages.

21. What was the last text message you received?
k.lin, abang dah takdak kredit nak reply msg.ceh sengkek rupanya adik aku

22. Can you play pool?
boleh la masuk lubang dua tiga bola

23. Can you swim?
enrolling in the private classes with azlin and the gang.well..yet:)

24. Favorite flavor of ice cream?
baskin robbins burst of orange and all of its citrusy flavours.kecur air liur..

25. What time did you wake up this morning?
ive been woken up by him at about 4.borak borak kejap sambung tido.515 then off to sahur

26. What are you doing this week?
most probably cosyin at home, sleepin n the regular basis.well..most probably goin out for break fast..again

27. Are you smiling?
smiling sheepishly like there is no valid reason?duhh im not tat crazy

28. Do you miss someone right now?
i miss my ol vibrant all nonsense me.

29. Do you have a crush?
nope.i rather breath it all alone than having to endure another crushed.unlike sum people who guilt free having relationship rite after the wrecked 'ship'...im wayy not easy to believe that species again.

30. Do you have a sister?
i have sisters

31. Who is your closest cousin’s name?
nadya e.

32. What were you doing 10 minutes ago?
rushing to the p.o to pay my nearly overdue streamyx bill

33. if you were a color, what would you be?
mysterious black

34. if you could go anywhere right now, where?
back to perlis..to the comfort of home

35. Food you're craving for right this minute?
im still fulled since the last sahur.

36. Name a person whose name starts with the letter d?
dindang ah suami amiyah

38. Radio station you frequently listen to?
my cd player normally does the work.but if given a choice, it wud be fly fm

39. Where do you usually hang out?
in kuantan, just being at home n sumtime in east coast mall. in kl gotta be the curve n midvalley.

40. if you were to change careers, what would you want it to be?
tai tai.devilishly rich n spoilt socialite.pehhhh...perasan tak hingat

41. What are you going to do tomorrow?
wake up late.cmon ..its saturday!

43. Are you easy to get along with?
YES.

44. What movie do you want to see right now?
i just want to watch my long overdue American Next Top Model season 10.pretty please spare me the time!

45. Whose birthday is coming up?
acik cik ke cik ke bum.

46. How many kids do you want?
4..the more the merrier

47. Where do you usually watch movies?
cd player. i hardly have time to watch it in cinemas

48. Name one person which starts with the letter "m"?
mama:)

49.Favorite things that you have now?
have to agree with nadya.mr muscle for the stubborn stain!

50. where will be your next holiday?
new york.serious weh!!!

life is all about makin stupid unwise choices:)

i always believe that in life, there are choices to be made.n the choices will sumhow turn u to be a wiser being or simply an immature bastard.its all about making indecisive choices.u never know until u take the road and experience it.which actually what i am doin now.im stuck with choices!!

shud i get myself the new ambience?shud i move?shud i stay?shud i?????

pressures wont help, it only deepened the problem.it wont solve it.so please hear me out patiently eventho i know how much u want me to go back to the comfort of home.

ntah la..time's tickin. if only i have the wizard's ball to foresee the future:)

masak session!

well..since it's sunday n this is the only day where we are entitled for a holiday (we worked yesterday for that replacement classes for raya), ive planned to cook.but there are so many things tat i wanna feed my hunger palate!ok..shud i go with kari ikan tenggiri n sayur campur daging?or kari ayam with ikan goreng sambal?n the desert sumore...wud it be simple goreng pisang ? or rather try the new recipe of murtabak maggi?

tgk je la apa ada atas meja kejap lagi kan.ehhehe..off now, need to get started!

the day when peeping does me good:)

what makes a blog enticing enough to be read?as a blogger even if not a frequent provider of stories i am, the urge of telling stories and anecdotes about ur life n perceptions would always be there.im one avid reader of blogs (esp when it is categorised as 'hot' blog..u get what i mean about tis later) and not in a day i stop reading blog or writing about it (even if for now im slacking of writing!!).ive started becoming a faith follower of blogging cult in the year of 2004 and basically the stories were only revolving about the relationship with my x (since he was on it too as well).and yes, the truth was, the blog in its starting point was deemed as private as only both of us knew the url to it (but heck to to that now!!).and ive never looked back.people who have chances to read mine might classify this as one rubbish blog as it talks nuthin useful (i did warn u peeps that mine cud be as gibberish as hell..just the way i like:).i would never ever deleted/transferred/cancelled my account in any way possible.ive read my life here in my own space.the ones that were forgotten are goin to be there in front of moi naked eyes.the ups and downs, the merry go round of life,u name it.call it as crappy as u want, but as long as i am able to still scribbling down words and emotions, i wont stop.so what do i discreetly reading anyway..?

acix's-i always love her stories about emot, and sum part of personal stories that has been told and to only later being transferred into words.i love her for her words on me, the ones that keep me going anyway.u are now in the bloggin cult, zarina:)

theyogainstructordiaries-personally, i dun know her,but yet again, i just love reading her 'twisting' and 'pretzel'ing her words.in a good way, yes.she's the celebrity yoga instructor as she being labelled to.and it is just enticing reading what the fun part of life that a yoga guru can turn to:)

lovemunchkins-this is poziah's.if u wanna have a dose of a motherly blog laden with sarcasm, u can get it all here.hahah.happy moving to the new crib, poziah!

pinkstiletos-she swears on herbalife n her post herbalife stories that keep me hooking with her blog.

nadya's-my cuzin.just stumble upon her blog.reading hers is like reading the updated stories of my aunt n uncle in terengganu:)oh n yes, she likes mine too.hhaha

i cud go on forever of which blogs that i secretly reading, be it celebrities, politician and normal beings.if ur life is such a downer n u need to divert ur attention to sumthin fun, i suggest..try digging urself on other people's blog.it's a cure!

finally:)

if i cud have sworn on..
f**k u both , loser bastards..

but i dun.

coz the stunned,flabbergasted look on 'his' face is more than enough.









it's priceless.

makan lagi..

what a day..we've spent the whole afternoon chitchatting at lina's place.sheeshh..i shud have taken a pic just to show u people our own version of parliament session.riuh tak hingat u ols!ahhaa..the best part is, our parliament is well completed with food!!actually it is the food who leads the way.lina brought kueh siput aka tat nenas keras 'kedekiang' (deriving from the experiment goes wrong.hahha..), behun and kepok leko.this does not include one whole tupperware of roti gardenia n its set of serawa courtesy of nyah.kenyang babe!its been a while since we last lepak like this and just have fun munching on food and savouring on gossips and such.tapi tak ngumpat ye:)skit skit je.i guess this gonna be the affair of wrapping up days towards the reaching of ramadan:) boleh ke macam ni?chit chat chit chat here which brought me to this...i shud have gotten home n pack my stuff n start the journey to kl.abah n mama are going to 'celebrate' ramadan with us all in kl.ta for now:)

the holiest.:)

ramadan..

is just around the corner.the holy month where u can actually be human n better servant of god.there are sooo many things ive long to do coming ramadan like fulfilling my terawih calls,cleansing the acts, cooking instead of pigging out etc.

to my dearest families and friends, fellow muslim sisters and brothers whom i know n yet to know, please forgive for all my wrongdoings.for whatever i do and say. im just a weak human being who sumtimes let the bad part of me doing most of the actions.if i ever cross ur path, trust me i didnt mean to do it the way i did, and if there are nother road to take, i would surely take it:).hope we are able to do ramadan to the max

sorry for everything and once again, salam ramadan from the frail me:)

the greatest guru.

life has been a great teacher.it teaches love will wilt,it teaches that people change, it teaches u the greater life ahead..the ones u never imagine u cud be.once ur in love, and in second ur out of it.once u are with sumone, and in second ur back to be alone.once ur top of the world, in a second uve been crashing hard to the ground.life is magic.i just need to know how to experience it wisely :)

peculiar me?

1.im crazy lookin at other's blogs. their stories intrigue me, their life fascinate me, their pics humor me :). i can keep on reading n reading for hours, for blogs that i dun even personally know the owner

2.i dig bubur so much.n i keep making bubur for afternoon tea n late supper.sedap ke tak letak tepi.even my apak pun naik heran he was once asked "buboq lagi???"

3.im in love wit meet uncle hussin n hujan.sound poyo je kan but dunno lah, feel the greatness of their songs, even tryin very very hard finding superfast downloaded sites to get their songs.

4.i can bable n nag my cat, mok for hours.like for today, we smelt poopie, n searchin where did mok went pooping, but to no avail.so in like every hour, i wud nag n berleter to him to practically tell me where the poops would be hidden.sheeshh..i must be losing my mind.

5.i 'seek' n 'find' new me.and i love it!cant believe i would totally love sth that i once despised

6.i superfuckin hate blu inc n its products.lamanya tak melucah!

7.i cringed to the word love, sayang, love and more love.it makes me wanna puke.seriously n it got nuthin to do with me n the stupid engagement.guess the hormone is back to balance.

sleepybum

gosh..im so sleepy albeit goin to bed early (if u cud call 3am early).been eyeing what wud get into my stomach later this afternoon.i got like 4 more days to go.kinda tiring fasting when people around u are hungrily chomping n gobbling on food.i was half awake tis mornin in my mornin class, tryin hard to make myself conscious to the kids.(dun even care much for latecomers today).gosh lyn..it's only 11am.u are so lack of sugar!

where does the good go

love is for those who blessed.i would not be the best person or neither do i in the perfect position to even begin talkin about love.but it coudnt stop me for being happy, at least for sumone else's love affairs.my long time friend from perlis, who just managed to walk out from her wrecked marriage, might finally find the one.we had a very long talk about her probability to begin another serious committed relationship.i know it aint easy to start trusting man after what had happened, believe me..when the love is murdered by the one u truly put ur trust, u had nowhere to turn to.that maybe..in the beginning of sprung into life again.but i believe her to have extra efforts to handle the blossomed relationship.funny is, she finds him just the exact way i found mine.and these are what i told her..
it is okay to be afraid
it is okay to be terrified of the unknown
it is okay to be prejudiced coz not all people around us are dealing with the same phase of life
it is okay to be in love again becoz love itself is about discovering the bitterness in life
it is okay to cry once in a while when u start comparing the one that went away n the one that makes you his princess
it is okay to smile upon promises
it is okay to feel stupid when things do not get ur way

and for all the unanswered questions would be answered later, believe me.just look back on the diary ive used to write
i noticed that life was much better and easier when you have less to think about. not about money, not about hurting hearts, not about being hurt, not about succumbing to people's need.that was just, being free. but life ain't easy. as clock is ticking, you gonna be bombarded with lotsa questions.
like...
would i make a right choice?picking up this man?i dont know. that was exactly the question i've yearned somebody to answer.it's a bit tricky.tis sort of question you would know better, not anybody else. God, i wish i would just be shown some ways, low or high, whether to pick this man is the noblest act i will do. please, help me.
23 july 07
and i got the answer in no less than a year.i so feel you my dear friend

i find me

haha..i need to find 5 more people to create the cloning cult.appaling...eh?:)

ps: dear girl, sorry to post u in the blog...but my friends cudnt stop comparing us.hahha:)

sisa

Apa makna rasa itu padamu
Apa maksudmu segalanya ada pada diriku
Apa ceritaku tiada satu kau teramat perlu
Apa yang kau lihat itu seadanya aku

Benar satu itu ada padanya
Benarkah kau terfikir itu tiada padaku
Benarkan aku buktikannya itu pada dirimu
Benarkan dirimu fikir kemungkinan itu.. ooo

Mungkin kaukan terseksa jika bersamaku
Mungkin jua kau kan sesalinya seumur hidupmu
Mungkin jua suratannya begitu
Mungkin aku bukan yang kau kenali dulu

Benar segalanya ada padaku
Pernahkah kau terfikir itu tiada padamu
Benarkan aku buktikannya itu pada dirimu
Benarkan dirimu fikir kemungkinan itu.. ooo

Mungkin kau kan terseksa jika bersamaku
Mungkin jua kau kan sesalinya seumur hidupmu
Mungkin jua suratannya begitu
Mungkin aku bukan yang kau kenali dulu

(sisa:nitrus 2007)

the day i feel like a gladiator

pic:courtesy of gossipboutique.blogspot

tell me where i can buy these uber gorgeous shoes which meant to be worn with tiny superduper micro mini skirt, yet that got to be no problemo coz u know u are still beautiful no matter what u are wearing.okay, off the crap.anybody, if u ever come across this pahlawan roman shoes, do tell me.it looks good here..well at least on the model's feet:)

i so love mockery

i so want to love + hug+ kiss+ coddle those who create this contemptuous mug wit its malign remarks.ha ha ha!!! so do i get this for my post birthday gift..anyone?

corazon roto..

i don't need your affection
i don't need your thought
i don't need your intention
i don't need your warmth
i don't need you

colours part 2..

the replacement killer..!

ok so what is all about fair and square in love and war? no im not talkin about my relationshipless..but im talkin bout the job ere.see, we had this anugerah kidmat cemerlang (APC)given to those lucky gov servants (hell...looo..they've gotten like rm1K okayy?).so we were the host of the event.and being so ever popular with those perkara perkara la'gho ni, i was again appointed to handle the show.just this time i was involved in poem recital.thats not the point here.what i try to POINT IT OUT here is that the event took place on MONDAY where the students were all given HOLIDAYS! n we were not since we were workin our a** out to run the event.okay what's the point again u ask? the main point here is that we need to REPLACE that gone monday in the coming saturday.what the..we are replacing for what?we came to work on monday anyway.who asked the kids to go home??i have plan.people have plan.stop treating us like we have no matters n family to care of.geram aku.in the meantime..here are the pixie.(masa ni tak sakit hati lagi :)

better in time

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile
cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

leona lewis (better in time , 2007)

colors..

if whatever shows potray the feeling within..

another painful day..

it's no longer than 24 hour i posted a story bout moi wounded shin, and now i am down with fever n very dry throat.what's next???

but the again..kesakitan adalah penghapus dosa dosa kecil as i remembered reading.:)

the day when the pain is bearable.

it was the regular sunday.as we had not planned of going out, plus it was drizzling outside, syida and moi suggested that we had our cooking session.it's been a while since i last cook..well to the matter of fact that it's been a while since i last got myself back on track.so off to the kitchen we went, n i kept on imagining yesterday's gulai ikan tenggiri.so to cut the story short, as i was transferring the ikan (it was the only piece left on the periuk actually) along with its tomato n bendi to another glass bowl, it exploded.okay...so exploded might sound harsh, but it aint funny when it came with the open wound n swollen part was as big as the ping pong ball.at first everything was ok.i wasnt panicky or anythin, funny thing was i tried cleaning up the mess while syida was astounded with the wound and whats with the blood that keep gushing out.went to the toilet, washed it, rubbed sum gamat oil onto it, wrapped it up with tissue n cellophane tape.well thats what i always do when handling wound n such.but never i imagined that it cud swell to the size as a pingpong ball and as syida put it, the wound was kinda smiling widely.ha ha funny !but later when i finished my zohor prayer n took out the self made bandage, there it was.syida asked me to seek for medical help.as it was sunday, the clinics were all closed.hello...doctors!do u guys have regular hours when people supposedly fall sick?so there is one clinic, but i was so close to strangle the doctor since he refused to do anything (well mind you, since the wound was kinda open n 'smiley' he was afraid it cud be infection n needed to be x rayed).so again.we went straight to ER in hospital besar.the wound was cleaned, but again the nurse afraid the glasses might got into the wound, so she asked me to go for a thorough x ray.as i was waiting my turn, as i sit there alone, all sorts of emotion coming to me. and as i promised not to let any tears drop, it disobeyed me.
it's much better seeing blood that u can touch than ones that u know u cudnt see.
as for the wound, ive got myself three stiches n lotsa love from people who deserve me.

any given sunday

i woke up this morning, expecting the emptiness and gush of sorrow just like i normally feel.but as i opened the eyes, it was another stream of mixed feeling that hit me.the feeling of calmness that i never expected to feel before.
it was the sunday.the wedding day.
it just that there is no wedding.
i jump off the bed, while my 2 sister were still sleeping soundly.i took a minute to scan the whole room, seeing that it doesn't change after all.i went to the living room, seeing abah just got back from buying breakfast, like he always does.upon watching me, he stroked my head slowly, and took me in his arms, hugging me tight.there is no word completing his acts, in just a moment i realized there are tears coming down after all.but i know it's not the tears of regretting, just the tears of realization that sumhow i cudnt make them happy.i hugged mama, soothing her, saying that this is the way God tested us, so be it.
i just can't believe i cud be this strong.i thought this sunday would be different. i thought i would just lock myself in the room and cry, pitying out life that hasn't been fair to me.
i guess God listens to my prayer, that i wanna be stronger and happier.
to the only man that is there in my heart, who gave me love and took it away, i pray God makes you stronger too.
this too...shall pass.

savage garden.

there was a garden..not exactly a garden of eden.but they like it there.both of them just love everythin they saw.colourful flower, gushing winds, cold stream of water.everything was perfect.nobody says no,everybody can be happy.she was happy, that was the moment of her life.she has never been in the garden full of flowers before.it made her terrified to just touch the flowers.it was so magnificent it made her scared.but he said okay.u can have all the flowers u want, these all being planted for u.she was unsure.but she lay there happily anyway.but he wasnt happy.he looked at the flowerbeds being destroyed.he looked at the stream of water where she just put her feet.it made him uneasy.he planted all these..why can he endeavour these first before she ruined it.so he said nay.he didnt want to stay in the savage garden anymore.it made him uneasy.he cudnt bear looking at the wilted flowers, the ruined flowerbeds.so he walked..walked n walked n keep on walking.she was left standing, with a flower in her hands, the one where she keeps on holding since the first time they came to the garden.the unwilted flower.

curtain

don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
but you put on quite a show
you really had me going
but now it’s time to go
curtain’s finally closing
that was quite a show
very entertaining
but it’s over now
go on and take a bow

-rihanna-

...

kita hampir ke situ (mendua & the lima)

Aku sadar bukan mudah
Untuk mengejar mimpi indah
Pernah suatu ketika dulu ku punya
Harapan besar
Kini aku tak pasti
Dapatkah ku miliki

Sudah jauh kita temu
Kekalkanlah impian lalu
Mungkin ada hikmah yg akan menunggu di penghujung jalan
Biar nanti kecewa
Setidak-tidaknya cuba

*korus

Jika halangan menduga
Perjalanan kita
Janganlah kau putus asa
Kerna ku ada di sisi
Setia menemani
Andai semangat mu gugur
Genggamlah tanganku
Kita hampir ke situ

Adakala ku terasa
Ketabahan tak setegah
Tetapi apakan andainya
Berhenti separuh jalan
Percayalah padaku
Aku yakin kita mampu

Biar orang katakan
Rapuhnya harapan
Bukan mereka tentukan tapi
Kau atau aku
Tandaku punya kamu
Apa telah akhirnya
Tetap bersama

u n i both

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me?while things are gonna happen naturallyOh, taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side And balancing the whole thing.Oh, but at often times those words get tangled up in linesAnd the bright light turns to nightOh, until the dawn it bringsAnother day to sing about the magic that was you and meCause you and I both lovedWhat you and I spoke ofAnd others only read ofOthers only dream of, of the loveOf the love that I lovedSee I'm all about them wordsOver numbers, unencumbered numbered words;Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words.More words than I had ever heard, and I feel so alive.Oh,then you and I, you and INot so little you and I anymoreAnd with this silence brings a moral story More importantly evolving is the glory of a boyCause you and I both lovedWhat you and I spoke of (of, of)And others just read ofAnd if you could see me nowWell, then I'm almost finally out ofI'm finally out ofI'm finally deedeedeedeedeedeeWell I'm almost finally, finally Well I am freeOh, I'm freeAnd it's okay if you had to go awayOh, just remember the telephoneswell, they work in both waysBut if I never ever hear it ringIf nothing else I'll think the bells insideHave finally found you someone else and that's okayCause I'll remember everything you sangCause you and I both loved What you and I spoke of (of, of)And others just read of and if you could see me nowWell, then I'm almost finally out of I'm finally out ofI'm finally deedeedeedeedeede Well I'm almost finally, finallyOut of words

taking chances

dear god..give me faith, give me strength, give me what's mine.i want him so much, but im letting him go if that what makes him happy.to love sumone is to make him happy.to make him happy is to let him go.
through the pain, through the endurances, through all the misunderstanding, u have been my teacher.thanks for all the wonderful years, not even single day would i take it as misery.
i just feel sorry i cudnt be the one who held u up, who held ur hands when u are down in the shitholes, i want to be there, to be happy, to be with you.but i was defeated.
u deserved to be happy, even ur happines means im not part of it.



i lose.

healer she's not

wedding should be joyful, glorious, the utmost happiest path in sumone's life.
but why do i feel im losing myself n everything in between?

i leave everything in His hands

one wit the fat ass

does anyone have shrinking pills where it could marvelously turn your body to be skinny n fit nicely in ur wedding gown coz i seriously feel im getting F.A.T....!!! not good.especially when there is a wedding coming up~

the one with no dress to wear

halo peeps..it was a very very tiring n longgggg weekend.i mean..physically n emotionally.zaire n i spent our weekend driving home..mind you..driving home to perlis by using his car(since i havent got the time to send kbl for a service).we just planned of goin home in a very last minutes actually.brought zaire to butik cindai klasik for dress fitting session(being a worrywart i am..takut tak sempat nak alter baju bulan lima), but too bad he couldnt find the one he likes which are compatible to the one ill be wearing (im donning a pink modern kebaya for bersanding.im sooooo like it.tengok lapan kali pun still suka lagi.hahah).the problem is that i bought my own baju bersanding.u know..to be delivered to the generation to come..hahahh.but not his.bukan lupa nak beli skali or what.i bought the kain far away in jakarta.so bila dah balik buat n everything, baru nak cari baju dia, n he doesnt even plan to tempah since dah tempat for akad (we are wearing white for nikah).so i needed to bring him home for the fitting session la.as i said earlier,takde pulak baju pink yang menawan hati..so what the heck..he needs to accompany again then in april.

the lil invitation

i did half of the accounting work yesterday...well,budgeting the wedding tat's it.it's not tat i didnt do it earlier (since most peeps say the most crucial part of marriage is managing the budget n all), it just needs a few more revision.pening jugak kan..no wonder people get headache planning the marriage n all.zaire wants me to give him the number of guests that abah wants to invite.tis is another matter.see..i am seriously considering to order the card from this tiny lil shop i found in Jakarta last month.it was more than great.it is gorrrrrrrrgeous!!what's with the pink color n pink ribbons n all.it was love at the first sight.the problem is..zaire's uncle is planning to fund the cards.yeah it is great, only if i know how the card would look like.

the mad lady is back

ho yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........i retrieved my ol blog SUCCESFULLY!!!!!
welcome...rambling n stuffs!!!!

raya?

im counting daysss to raya!goin home, no matter how bad the condition wud n cud be, i still love my home.that comfy sofa, thos plasma tv, that unglamorious toilet, that berserk roo..i just love everything back home.now that raya is just around the corner, n i cud only call to ask for the updates.well,looking that abah kinda bz repainting the house (paen said sth about having warna keladi??).me, ina n aten wud only be goin home this saturday since ina got her work finish at 1 am on friday.so rise n shine baby.but to be honest dude..i dun really feel the vibe of raya.well, maybe that im gettin older n older every year, n maybe that derived from all the tense at home.i dunno, i just wanna go back to that comfy home again.

rejoicing Ramadhan! (with food)

it's been a fourth day of ramadan, meaning that ive been spending money on thos food that left uneaten.i know this gonna be one absendminded act as holy ramdhan supposedly teach us to not be boros n spend money whenever u got growling stomach.just like yesterday, i ended up buying ikan bawal which was half than being eaten, sata (4 pieces altogether which ended up being in a garbage plastic) n few more side dishes which im not supposed to buy since i hardly ate all of em.if this all about lusting over food, guess i can never say no to.im a small but frequent eater.i got hungry easily from time to time.and as for the ramadhan, we the girls have been setting up plan to go out n have superlicious break fast hour.like today, adeline said she wanna treat four of us to Secret Recipe.yum yum,and acik, being her birthday coming up next week, wanna having the same deal n we gonna hit kenny rogers tmorow.next week, Kak Nor has this funtastic idea about having our break fast at this Chinese restaurant nearby Grand Cont.em emm...how' s that for a first week of Ramadhan? :)

real women have curves..

there..the title of my eversodepressing blog wud hopefully sumhow help me regarding to my weight consciousness.well not that im being spending times thinkin whether i cud be a bit thinner than this, it just the matter that, it wud be great if i am blessed wit a flat tummy, nice shape of gorgeous leg, structured arms n smaller breasts (im not supposed to put it down, but anyway..this my blog!).i am not scrutinizing myself, infact im glad im kinda shrinkin these years, but looking at ur own reflection in the mirror every morning wud eventually bring one consensus,'u are one lazy lady, miss!' u keep on scrutinizing ur body, commenting here n ther, but u done nothing in return.
well,i did carry out actions, i went to gym, been on the treadmills for hours, swearing on yogurts n cursing on carb, waking up early every weekend just for the matter to jog freely, buying myself a rope so i cud do skipping, panting myself to every movements of raina's belly dancing and so forth.but why cant there be a miracle to my figure?
so back to the topic (which evidently true, n the topic is from one HBO's original movie indeed), i believe we are yet to be the real women, because the real women are those who believe in curve and fat that there are blessed for.

angel

we were having our shopping spree in KLCC, which mostly that was me doin the shopping, then it was raining hard.pretty hard.i was actually goin home to kuantan, n the car was park way far from the park.he did all his best, stopping every taxi n asking em whether they cud commute us to the parking spot which was merely just few hundred metres away.all for the matter of not lettin me caught cold n influenza.
It was again in the park of KLCC, i hadnt have chances to pour whatever i felt inside, all the commotion of sadness for the lost of my dearest angah.And i barely knew him, but here infront of him, i washed away tears, lotsa them.The first time since the day of angah's funeral, i knew i had sumone who i can talk to.his gestures were enuff.
he was the one who worked very hard to find me tailor, when i cudnt find even a single person who could sew my clothes for my Raya masquerade. God knows how happy i was back then, knowing i cud parade with my opel baju kurung.
my friends knew im fond of Hayao Miyazaki's work, the creator of Spirited Away and Totoro. but being penniless i am always, i cud only buy a cd per outing, n the rest, i asked him to do the pirating process. he did the most suprising thing, no not doin the downloading thingy, but presented me a complete box of original Hayao's series.
It was a third day of Raya,he boarded the bus a nite before, reaching Perlis, met my parents, n getting the bus back to Johor the very same day.

then if all these good things he had done to me, why cant i be his angel for once?

the wedding...!!

since it is a wedding frenzy ere n ther, i now enclose u the pics of musab's wedding.yeh..thos a'la bollywood style :)

14 April 2006

HAPPY PEOPLE!
happy anniversary to us..cant believe it's been 3 years now since we first started lecturing.how things change.how people come n go.how life surrounded with students give sum meaningful insight.thanks for being the wonderful crews.n thats blue for us!

tagging tagging..let's do writing!

taggin??well not really know about it but used to hear the word before.so gee tagged me (had no idea how to tag n be tagged tho), n these i present u all the fours for ur pleasure of reading!

Four (latest) jobs I've had:
1) workin as my father's secretary in his office (which my job required me to take orders n talk over the phone all days.i like...even the pay was ciput.ehhe..
2) tuition teacher-i taught form 3 studts.not bad, except for the pay (again..!)
3) matric lecturer-guess educating ppl is genetically flows in my brain
4) sum glamorious jobs in the future perhaps??being tai tai?i wish!

-Four movies I can watch over and over:
1) my best friend's wedding - cameron diaz was wayyyyy lovable!
2) y tu mama tambien -ha ha...raunchy!
3) spirited away- animaniac i am.i know.i simply love ghibli's product.
4) romi n michelle high school reunion-i were michelle..if that a case..:)

-Four TV shows I love
1) america next top model -all seasons.the bimbos and the brain never get intact.they cant even pronounce issey miyake for modellin' sake!
2) everybody loves raymond-shud i tell ya peeps over and over again tat frank barone is discreetly my idol?
3) desperate housewives-yes im on the bandwagon.
4) all reality tv series that have the bitchiness in its programme.

-Four places I've vacationed
1) danok, chieng mai, thailand- mostly for the purpose of wasting money.
2) medan, indonesia- i was in love n had huge crush on our tourist guide.haha
3) pedu lake, kedah-one of the most amazing, serene hideout place ive found so far.
4) singapore-love every single day of it

Four of my favorite dishes (in no particular number of preferences.im not a picky eater)
1) nasik lemak makcik at pasar malam MEC gambang (unglamorious place but the nasik was beyond words! been her regular every thursday tho)
2) mama's sambal udang n sambal tumis ikan bilis-when to see me piggin then tis is the time
3) chicken rice shop's beansprout-emm emmm...crunchy enuff to make it as snackin option
4) moi spaghetti bolognaise -:)

Four sites I visit daily:
1) friendster.com -appreciate the ol ones, cherish the new ones..
2) forum.cari.com-well resourceful web.from food to gossip, travellin to books.anything!
3) myspace.com-refer to #1 review..ill be using the same anecdote
4) blogs-gee's, nini's (theyogainstructordiaries), n zaire's.love readin their written mind

Four places I would rather be right now:
1) apartment-im so much in needed of lustful sleep!
2) kangar-still not gettin over the homesick disease
3) any dental clinic-this stupic tooth is killing me
4) nowhere-id rather be infront of the pc n complete the tag.ehhehe

4 bloggers I am tagging
geez....im still learnin the meanin of taggin for god sake!

my ache

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....sakit gigi nih.argh argh argh

the day i want to curl up and die

so im overeacting.for the title yes indeed.but thats my mundane expression.it would be a day when u feel u cant laugh for jokes, u wanna cry but there would be no tears n u feel ur life is just one pathway to heaven..or hell perhaps.no i dun have any innerself issues if u wanna label me crazy.i just dun feel good.u know?'those' feeling comes n washes u.thats that.pronto.or maybe it becoz it's nearly the end of semester, or probably becoz its my menstrual cycle.whatever.

the visit

now that he's finally came n the curtains fall, it coveted the work nonstop.i wudnt even wanna be the usher ever again.not that i cant even remember the face of those vvip n vip, just the matter its tiring askin n ushering em to have their comfy seats whilst u stood watchin frm the beginning.well, as for eye candy n as for the cherry on the top, now i present u.. ( do refer the pic above..it's supposed to be after this short ramble..duh!)
he was smashingly hot, amid been drenched in sweat.me n zarina??yeah we did have spotlight on the both parts of our cheeks!

1o 'weirdo' acts of moi u dun know about (just becoz i dun know what other craps shud i paste in my blog.ha ha)

1) i cant sleep in a messy bed, meaning, i have to tarik the cadar sampai kemas then later i can land on it happily.stupid enuff yes indeed since u would eventually mess it even more.

2) i cant go out without havin the colored lippie, even the taintest color of gloss would do. i would be looking so pale ppl mistaken me of recovering from flu if i have none of it.believe me, it happened before.

3) i love to drive.maybe i am born to be a driver.i used to drive bout 400 km back to perlis, got 15 mins rest n back behind the wheels again for nother 150 km to penang

4) only god knows how super duper sensitive moi cud turn out to be. i watched simba the lion king n cried sheepishly in the cinema.n so other dramas, so other movies, n so other songs. i hurt easily.

5) i am a very very picky shopper. picky in the terms that i cud have window shopping for hours, coming back n forth to the same shop, picking it up, scrutinizing like a mad scientist n ending it up by not buying it afterall. it takes forever to make a simple decision.ask my sis. she hates me doin that.i mean..for taking her time too much only on surveying things.

6) i used to worship spice girls, n even used to save money so that i cud watch them live in action if they ever made it to malaysia.used to paste their posters everywhere in the room,used to master their dance routines, even an avid user of their Impulse spray perfume, even bought their DVD's concerts.i am indeed.. still in love wit the gurls.i am a wannabe.hahahha

7) i cant wear crease clothes. i feel incomplete, feel unprepared.i can repeatedly iron my clothes over n over again. used to take good 2 hours to make the crease on my baju kebaya less visible.

8) i love catsssss so much.but im not a good keeper of em.i used to take the 12 hrs ride of goin home to perlis, n return bck to kuantan all in 24 hrs just becoz i wanna see my dying cat Tam Tam.in short, i do crazy things for all it takes if it includes my fav pets

9) i am a photo freak.ask my buddies, ill be ready if u got the camera on.hahahha

10) i.... (now do finish the sentence for me if u know sth weird i havent notice bout moi before :)

all about the L words

love..aint it so ever be so unfathomable?

James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover Lyrics

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

all about the workin out

im startin the joggin routine again!after past months been neglectin the only routine that ensure me to burn all the extra baggages, now im bck on track,well literally.cant believe what i got myself into for these past few weeks.ive been piggin on food, not really care bout gainin weigh whatsoever like i used to.all the upsetting phases of my life all lead to the calories whopping i guess.n goin home to momma's house was like being the cherry on the top.havent been stop eating since then, im always in the hungry mode.even tokwas, one of the colleague ere was amazed of my ability (capability?)of munching food caters for two.ha ha.so i made this 'resolution', that all the baggages have to go!i need to tone my arms' muscle, it is soooo flabby it has been jokes to lenny n acik, n my thigh, n my stomach.goshh..i cant even bring myself to wear baju sendat sendat anymore.so, arming with acik (t' was her idea to hit the gym, n mind to hit the track), we went for our first jog on sunday mornin.yeah, when u still under the comfy blanket we were like squeezing the sweat from the unwanted fat.managed to finish bout 3 rounds n stop for a breakfast (guilty again!!..it was kinda heavy.now helloooo to few more kilojoules).tat afternoon, we hit the gym n been tryin the machines at once.n know what?now that i have the excruciating pain on the thighs and a small clogged blood on my feet it still not dampen the mood of shoving all those kilos.hope this not gonna be one nite devotion.hehe.

again

yeah it is me..wit my sis at one of the shopping complexes im talkin bout.spending almost few hours n resulting in nuthin actually.cant really force myself to splurge since the currency exchanged keep on ringing its bell.duhh.we went out for dinner at one of the local food stop.ordered fried mee n milo..heaven sake it was too much to take.the portion was huge n i had to share it.they even had thos typical pasembor easily found in penang.again, it's all about the portion that im worried bout.ha ha.im not a big eater i wud say.oh oh the pixture on the left was actually the aquarium.so likely aquaria but it is in the shopping complex.go figure.

we went for the knickknacks hunting for the next day.the target?yeah u guess it right. arab street n bugis street.buying myself a nice short jacket, bein envied n pursued by ina till now.no wayy im lettin it to be borrowed, cost me about 20 dollar n yeah, a string of pearl necklace bout 5 dollar. n for thos chickas back home, found them sth as well.last spot was to go lepakin at sentosa, watching that magical fountain n lazyin watchin the sunset went down at siloso beach.heaven.

across the border

hay.. can u see me?welcome to the merlion city.at last, the much awaited plan has been fulfilled.cant really describe how much work and energy have been digested for the trip to be a reality. and thus...i think i enjoyed everythin thruout the vacation.well almost..except a few heartwreckin parts. i might not be a good story teller becoz i believe sum memories are better laid in mind (i am so lazy to actually scribbling words), well but for ur pleasure of reading i'll try to spend my precious mins jottin down a few.
singapore is a well developed city i would say. even small in size, u cud see that the development n the system are fully expansed.just imagine that inside the cab we rode it was even a swipe machine for ur precious credit card!n the taxi, mind u, just look frighteningly similar like us.we went straight to the hotel, checkin in n drove around town to find the tourist spot. gosh..and the tourist spot they meant were basically the plazas and shopping complexes!cant really remember we were we actually, it cud be takashimaya, far east plaza, the atrium becoz what we did were to keep on walkin along the alleys, tunnels and zebra crossings. their shoppin complexes are well structured where u can get to the next plaza by only walkin thru the underground tunnels.superb!goshhh..they were rushing me for quick lunch. get bck to this later!

there are still good people around

everything happens is because of the Godwill, so when i face so much trouble regarding to my pasport application, i know i would never make my holiday trip to the end.you see, i skipped my work in kuantan (even we are actually not doin anythin coz it is an exam week afterall), drove approx 295 to kl, n queueng for almost 2 hrs just to get the number, all in order to get my pasport done. after all the ruckus with ina's birthcert, it was me who being stopped in the middle.ok to make the story clear, i went to kl to make my pasport becoz we are planning to have a singapore visit for the upcoming hols.the first problem is when ina left her birth certificate at home, and only later being told when we reached the counter.so for the second attempt, about a few weeks later, armed with complete form, n berth cert, we went back to kajang to make it done, only then to know that i was the one who having all the trouble becoz i cudnt proceed doin the pasport, becoz i got my own before!how cud i know, it was 10..11 years back n only god knows where my dad placed all thos pasport.he cudnt even recall his, much about mine.so i was devastated, too upset to do anything instead of calling my mum bck in perlis to find me thos pasport. u see , the trouble is, we had already bought the tickets, n it was on the 25th jan, n the period of making pasport would take u 3 days. so it left me with not many choices instead of askin my mum to find it for me. i was so helpless.determine that there cud be sth i can do to rectify the situation, i drove to shah alam, with zaire(im sorry huny i have to drag u with me), made the police report , went to the commissioner of oath n then later ' begging' the officer to give me chances of having the pasport done in that period of time.n he obliged!thus that was the turning point for that day.i cudnt say enuff of thankful notes for all the help that i got, to the guards who been really helpful, the officers who not at once smirked or showed they were pretty much annoyed with me askin things, to my mum n aten who spent time searchin for my lost pasport back home, n to him for wanting to spend his worktime with me. im soo blessed to have this people when the situation itself already brought me close to tears.thank u.

and a party to kick start a day..

im bloating..literally!we had a pot luck party early this mornin, where we are asked to bring sum food n drink to accomplish the theme.i brought hors d oeuvre, emm..a cold platter to be exact.well..mind me im so lazy to prepare a good meal i ended up bringing over the starter instead.so as early as 9 am we are like crazily munching over food.i shud have taken sum pics to be kept!

adios '05!hola 06!!

assalamulaikum n hello people.it is 14 official days since 05 bid farewell for us.guess it's not that too late to say happy new year to all people who faithfully been the readers of my blog.i know sum of my words in the blog might as well unintentionally break hearts of ppl around.but as i said in my earliest page, this would be basically what i pour straight from the heart, so mind the crap n gibberish stories ive had unfold here.
so that 06 has arrived, i dun have any intention of writing my resolution coz i know im not the person who keeps up her resolution till the end.i even broke the resolution just a min i said i want to fulfil it.but there are few things i would rather change or add.

throughout the year of 2006, i 'resolve' t0:
1)being less emotional n overly sensitive for stupid reasons.n stop wasting those tears.i would try to come n rethink that every problem is passable thru time

2)stop act like a kid even i have a heart like a kid.it's time to move on n be mature over years.but cudnt really help if ppl mistaken me for an 18 year ol kid tho!(unless they realize the wrinkles that start to appear around the eyes)

3)be nice to people whom i know love me tender.be nice here by all means contacting em, askin bout their well being n such. i know ive been such a moron before, forgettin birthday n important date of people i love.

4)adding more friends in my circle of friends' list.rekindle the ol friendship, flourish the new ones..

5)stop quarelling that much with my mum

6)stop quarelling with him over stupid reasons n try not to be that big headed(as he puts it)

7)try to be a better servant of God (im no angel)

oh hoooo..n there are possession i would love to add..purchase or even take it as present (wink..wink!) for 2006!

1)rejuvenating myself in a mean of having holidays.cant wait for a singapore trip this january!!

2)a new guess or liz clairbone or LeSportSac handbags.i do need one bad!

3)a new dvd/mp3 player for my kelisa

4)a rank of clothes

5)a set of stila makeup consisting of its wonderful rouge pot of those classic gloss.mmmm...

againts the odds

looking at her blithe look, i knew directly she has made her choice, and the choice is to be the most radiant bride i've seen.marryin the man of her life, planning to have babies, she is the person who always so sure of what she wants in her life.well..that was almost a year ago.now, she is arming with a baby girl...and a divorce.almost.i never know she is never happy, she never talks , never badmouth about her mundane matrimonial life.and when she broke the news of her separation, just like when she annoucing her marriage a year ago, i was agape and taken aback, fullforce.i never realise, never know she was coping with the unworkin marriage.
as the cliche would say, marriage is partially a game, a risky undertaking.won't ever know whether u make it to the final rope, or say nay in the between.for u my everdearest friend, u have my pray.hope 'this' landslide wont bring u down any further.la vita e bella..ironically.

here comes the birthday boy

my hunybuny celebrated his 25th birthday on the 26th dec.making an ironic joke that he got the 'biggest' present ever last year (he was cruel enuff to compare his own birthday with the catastrophe of tsunami.ish ishhh),off we went to midvalley to celebrate.it was actually a sudden celebration, what's with me just arriving from perlis, n what's wit throng of ppl ushering every shops n food outlets in mid it left us wit no choice but heading to Long John Silver for lunch.not bad, he even got himself a nice cup of chcocolate mousse for bday cake.sorry i cudnt serve u better.i just hope u have the wonderful year to come, n hope u like the gift i gave.sorry for all the hiatus i caused, i just being plain annoying sumhoe(well, maybe all the time).but that just me. so thanks for stickin up wit me, during sane n insane moments.happy birthday dear you..

dirty lil secret..

i am listening to the all american reject not so latest hit, dirty lil secret through imesh, when this sudden urge comes to write few words in my blog.how many dirty lil secret uve been keeping from ur friends?spouse?life partner?family?i bet in a nook corner in our heart, we have sth not to be spilled to ppl surround us?why?the answer is simple. that dirty lil secret is sumhow embarrased u, sumhow painful, sumhow sinful n sumhow stupid.am i rite?i do have skeleton hanging in my closet, exposing it just makes it as a point of immaturity.even if u are a married person, do u solely tell everything to ur hubby?to ur wife?and when ur courting, did u tell every thing to the other half?n now..how long would u take to keep it?ha ha.now my blog would only be filled with questions, now if u only can answer mine..how dirty is ur secret?

i hear the wedding bells!

now im gonna spill the beans of the much awaited suprise.the one who's gettin hitched is the classic gentleman, courtesy of mohd musab, n his bride to be is none other of our own colleague ere in college, wan zai azlin.pretty suprising huh?they engaged last weekend n by any sooner of next year, the wedding will be taking place. it is amazing how ppl meet each days, but the love only blossoms after a while.i believe their love is not merely about having it at the first sight, but more to deeper thoughts n recognition. who am i to give a comment on such thing aite?let's bless them happiness!!

te reality

oh hooo im back.how nice it is to be back, back to the real surrounding, the office, the nice comfy bed, the plush red chairn the ever annoying bunch of students.ha ha.still adore em tho.hemm class in couple of mins.ready to go but been suprised by acik's news.sumone is gettin hitched n definitely is wayyyy being expected!ha!congrats.

innalillah..

Datin Seri Hendon passed away peacefully this early morning approx at 7.55 am after long battle with the cancer.May God bless her soul.

a sick, lunatic, maniacal peeping tom!!!

i came across gee's blog last week stating she faced a crazy sex maniac in upm's compound.i felt sorry for the man , i know that nuthin the man showed would interest her tho.hahha.anyway..ere in the college, similar incident happens.but no no..worry not.not that we've been flashed, but the case is about a peeping tom who still at loose.believe me gee..it happened in our college, at our apartment.looks like the sick man is eyeing the anak dara sunti houses the most, collecting or shall i put it as swiping undies!how sick is tat?n last nite, a couple of man from the next block nearly caught the culprit but to no avail.he's sneaky enuff to wear all black so he cud get off smoothly unnoticed.i even heard kak aini's hubby yelled to stop him saying 'pencuri pencuri!'but when i drawed the curtain, all tat i cud see was a pitch of darkness.gosh, with the raya holidays coming up i dun feel safe anymore.ok maybe tis sex craved maniac been eyeing the girls, but do we have to wait till the worst come?

my love

ta daaaa..at last, i successfully able to upload the photo of my everdearest love of my life.well..once.ni la dia ahmad isnen or better known as nen.:)tis goin to be the sec raya he wudnt be wit us, n no more pics of him cud be taken.how i missed him.so so adorable. so okay..he's not persian, but he definitely is one of a kind.may ur soul rest in peace baby!

the white baby

my car's aircond has been leaking since the last 2 weeks.so what else to do instead of goin to the car's 'clinic' n seek for the treatment n how much treatment fare?try rm 80!so im officially penniless n got 2 hundred bucks to spend till the big day come.goshh..n i dun even got the chance to buy the shoes ive been eyeing so long!the a la gucci kinda clogs.now it shows the difficulty of taking care my white baby.he needs extra tender loving care n being a good momma i am, went straight to the clinic if anythin bad ever happens.goshh..it really needs u to have extra amount of money in the end of the day just for the sake of taking care the car.rm 80 might not sound that much, but hey for the time like this, even rm 10 bucks are really counted.n now that i need sum more money to repay my dad for the bus ticket..hemmm.

he ho...2 more weeks to go!

it's about 2 weeks more, n has been 3 days i 'postponing' my puasa.haha..red zone alert.thers nuthin much i can do for the preparation since got no gaji yet.aiyoo payday payday still is awayyy..and with bonus coming along ere are the things needed to be done:

1) buy kuweh raya
have no urges to make cookies tis year, well maybe a kind or two.tgkla kalau rajin.the rest i wud probably just buy it for those who promote it straight to my nose.hahah.ppl dun really relaly go for kuweh these years.they are prone to eat kerepek kerepek.they are more into snacking!

2) check baju raya
hope both of them tailors dun screw up my baju raya or it leaves me nuthin except my undies.ha ha.

3) check the cars
it's gonna be long journey home n the probability of me driving home alone is very high!so gotta check the tyres(by any means, more money is needed for the check up thingy.aiyooo)

tanjobi omedeto gozaimasu zarinaaaa

happy birthday to zarina.hope tis year will bring sth gewd for her..n maybe for her n her huby. :) wish the friendship will last n enuff off all tat stupid arguments.ha ha.i guess it does happen in any healthy friendship.she's glowing tday, n wit all the presents surrounded her, i hope she'll like the 'thing' i bought her.now u can look pretttyyyy..hehehehhe.

perlis vs selangor

im goin to kl this saturday. n guess what the purpose for???watching football!!!!can u believe it?believe it!

meetin mum

mama was in town last weekend, so i was in town as well.needed to meet mum, been missing her tho.went n fetch her at her hotel.goshhhh..why cant jpn perlis placed these teachers at more classy place?her hotel was easier to be found, but becoz i was tired n it was gettin late, it turned out to be one tedious task.brought ina along the next day to fetch her.n even brought mum along for a lil shopping spree.went to stila, buyin acik that present, n off to kinokuniya.mum departed the next day, but the nite before, bcoz of ina's prob, all lil secrets of us were shared, n mum was kinda open to listen to whatever shrubs we were saying tat nite.:)a very nice chat indeed.

this is me..then

u know how's the good feeling feels?well....it feels real good. for instance..u got into misunderstanding with one of ur close friends..n u compile ur guts n face the truth.it feels good..mending the altered friendship:)

im prettyyy beat!

drive home alone fr kl since i didnt allow zaire to tag along.ha ha.sorryy dear, but dun tink it'll be good idea since i got a practise wit students bout the launching thingy.got a stop at projet, buy me bbq burger n mocha n spent bout 20 bucks for mags .i have no idea why i ended up buying so many things!safely arrived at 4, slept awhile (i really really need a nap!)n was woken up by the msg fr jue askin for a double sided tape.bummer....there goes my naps!hu hu.finished practicing about 2 hrs later, n shud i say tis?the kids ROCK babe!promised acix that we need to be at the hall as early as 7 o clock, but heck i woke up at 645!thank god we arrived early coz some idiots disarranged the chairs!i was closed to tears but need to muster all strength so tat it wont end up as a laughin matter among students.but upon seeing the kids on stage, doin the fairies thingy, was i proud?u bet!n even pengarah praised us for doin tremendous job.

cotton candy!!!!!

i spent my saturday evenin out for a movie.the choice?the latest teen flick feel good movie.u guess?yeah hell no its not gila gila pengantin popular.i wud never, but given the time, gol n gincu was the film i lasted to almost 1 1/2 hours.from the first scene, my eyes were glued to the screen.watchin the movie would remind me back of watchin all sorts of romantic movies that u ended up having the 'aaaahhh..'expression.it reminded me of ada apa dengan cinta and 10 things i hate about u, but obviously wit different storyline.
kudos i would give to rafidah 3r, she was good in writing the script it feels that it was almost real.fazura, she was ok too as the overly manja girl n girly girly kinda gal.but i wud say, throughout the film, i was waiting for pierre andre all the time to appear on the screen. ha ha. it was like back in my teen years which i wud go ga ga over the actors in the film. but pierre andre as reza the secret admirer of putri was so cool, n he didnt have to mush over lovey dovey expression to say he likes her a lot.the eyes tell everything.n the expression.
my verdict?it's far betterr than i imagine.9 n 1/2 stars for that~

thank god the day is almost over

it's gotta be hard pouring rain outside, but still i havent made up my mind to pick my handbags n dashed towards the exit.sumtimes lepakin in the office could be much fun than spending time at home.picked up fight wit him again.the issue?just sum silly argument but if been fought over often, one cud get tired n bored.n one cud just say no to the whole camaraderie.tell me, help me clear things up..cud or cud not sumone who is in relationship, accepting offer for a casual date fr other person?to zaire, im generalising it ok?so stop askin me q if u ever stop by n ask me.

speak people...SPEEEEAAAKK!!

ups speaking exam starts today.thank god ive only invigilated 2 classes today, meanin 4 groups altogether.if more than that, i might be clautrophobic n died.ha ha.bored bored boringgggg monday day (ha ha ha).
acix starts her own blog but she refused to let ppl read her scribbling thoughts.ha ha.yeah i know..the first time i started my blog, i was kinda refused to let ppl read,wit the fact that 80 percent of the content contains lotsa lotsa mushy thang written by none other than moi.let's face it..used to have diaries, got bored wit it n blog might be the way to express minds nonetheless.well..that..if u have lotsa gut to put down ur thought n brave enuff to know that ppl might burst out laughin reading ur hogwash mind.
goin to pasar malam later..need to support myself wit pasar malam stuff since too lazy to cook.any ideas what to sumbat inside my lil tummy tday?ewahhh..

me n the boredom

lepaking at home the whole weekend, not doin anythin good except read few storybooks.story books did get me hooked.in a way, this weekend makes me restless, counting the days to go to kl.i wanted to see my family.cant wait!!!!oh, zaire goin to brunei for the work.au revoir, ma cherie!(hope im using the right expression :)

the list continues..

4) kekasih awal dan akhir
that was the first movie i even watched in cinema, as it was the first appearance of zizie ezzette on screen.marvelous movie for it has sofea jane n jamal abdillah.done way resemblance of bollywood theme, with lotsa songs n pitied moment of heart wrenches, it still was a hit n in my list.

5) ali setan
ogy in her teens n i love the movie becoz it got sheila majid.many antics done by uni students.from the dork to the jocks i just lurve the plot.

the best romantic movies ever

1) my best friend's wedding
i always love the collaboration between julia roberts, cameron diaz and delmot mulroney.they have all that on screen chemistry needed in a cheesy romantic story like this.u cant even hate julia roberts for being intruder between diaz n mulroney. u just cant help to love her more.her edginess, her lack of common sense, and her big hair do.funtastic to watch!oh, i love diaz too.she just being guilty for her clumsiness n being wayy cheeky!

2) ada apa dgn cinta
do i need to say more.at one time, most of us are like going ga ga over rangga (now it's even ryhme!).who wouldnt.he was the kewlest man i felt at that time.dun have to be all lovey dover.his appreciation of love are thru the poem, n attention.just love the curly messy hair!!.

3) eiffel im in love
just watched the movie yesterday.samuel rizal..oh ohhhhhh..just love the baldness.but cant beat rangga tho

4) cant think of number 4 coz im darn hungry.get back to this later~

here she goes

ina got the job after been waiting for almost 2 weeks!glad she got it after all. i just know the feeling of being penniless n cant even do and purchase anything u want.money is like...everything?oh, she even passed her second attempt of that driving test.happy for het tho!:)

princess tam tam

upon seeing her, tears started to stream down my face.she was barely alive, she was mustering all her strength just to look at me with that sollen, red rimmed eyes.i called her behind the hedges.calling all i might, cause i know ive been waiting too long to see her.i dont really mind that 12 hours of bumpy road, coz i just know i want to see her badly.she didn't even pour, she nudged a bit, maybe the feeling of wetness of the cloth faten placed under her.yeah, it was just typical me, so emotional, so full of over dramatic act.but how cud u not crying when u see her like that.the food, the mouldy looking food was not even touched.i pattted her on the head, realizing i was patting a partly bone that fur.she was so bony, so skinny.and yet, she was restless, she was doin anything she cud to stay alive. i know she knew we wanted her to live.she started to breath again, even with the nose congested with reddish substance, presumably blood.her paws fagile, there were even patches of blood on the fur.but aten was so keen of taking care of her, and my dad, since the last 2 kittens cudnt make it.he cried.i knew my dad would cry even for a cat.he got soft heart.
and even i am here, sitting on the comfy chair in the office, there are still vivid, placid pictures of my princess, hoping to get a new hope of life.

the induction at last!!

first day of june.first activity for reading being introduced to students.not really had the warming responses fr the students regarding to the first activity.guess they are still adapting to the new environment of learning in college.earliest today, kak siti mentioned acix bout the induction, saying that me n munie got to go after all.good..guess i dun have to wait any longer.been discussing bout the room tho, n the transport to go..yada yada yada.need to fork out few ringgits to buy things.i need new bag!!!!my elle travel bag is like sooooooo yesterday~!!!