merely words

demmit..i make a guy lose 15kg and the funniest part is..i hardly remembered making such bet.

ehheh..oh no..no..this guy got nuthin to do with my personal life.just a fren i crossed path with, just a buddy i went out for a late nite cuppa at a mamak stall, just a buddy that cud take up a notch to the challenge i gave.

seriously...aku lansung tak ingat.

after these while

i'm walking away
from the troubles in my life
i'm walking away
to find a better day

sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something that i said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run

but now i truly realize
some people don't wanna compromise
well i saw them with my own eyes
spreading those lies

well i dont wanna live a lie
too many sleeples nights
not mentioning the fights
im sorry to say

im walking away
from the troubles in my life
im walking away
to find a better day

(walking away: craig david)

lazy bum part 2

see the messy room?now that's what happened when SIRIM thingy is just around the corner, and u have been procrastinating all the yearly works needed to be done in a year, but only got the time (?) to start it the night before the internal audit.i am so malasss!!!!in between the works, still able to feed myself with 2 bowl of lontong and plums.and yeah, sufficient inputs of cheap gossips from the internet.hehe

slinky kitty..or plain lazy?

when all u tink is just being lazy...

well...this cat is far ahead from you!

the day i am a golddigger

saturday morning, i was handed this necklace n its locket by mum.she referred it as her good luck charm.well, i like the locket, as it resembles a bunch of grapes made from jade.takdelah berlian bling bling ke apa, but it's cute enuff.the problem is...

i dun do gold.i hate wearing jewelry.i only wear it on the special event basis..like hari raya (the first day..i repeat..only on the first day).i love makeups..but i hate gold.that probably makes me 'half women'.(perempuan yang asli minat makeup dan simpan barang barang kemas ni.gedditt??)

emotion sickness

oh..i am not sick.neither my emotion or my being.it just the title of silverchair's number i was once so crazy of.and kebetulan my mum was switchin thru the channel n tetiba stopped at @15 and there it was..silverchair vidclip.adakah silverchair telah mempengaruhi emakku?

on a second thought, i might be sick emotionally.

kerana apa?

kerana i was so a moron to NOT LOCK MY CAR IN KUANTAN FOR ALMOST A WEEK NOW, AND ONLY BEING TOLD BY MY NEIGHBOUR JUST A SECOND AGO!!!

doink!!i was so forgetful, i thought i had locked the car.definitely, since i drove acik's hubby's car to kl.thank god my car was nicely parked under the porch out of the scorch of sunlight, and yes it is parked within my college vicinity. just imagine if i left my car at ina's, for a week, without locking the door?nasib baik je la kalau nampak tyre mark sekalipun kan?

and thanks to silverchair, now i feel like rummaging thru my old stuff and checked my collection of silverchair's memorabilia.mana la aku letak kaset silverchair dulu ek?

IM TAGGING EVERYBODY TO DO THIS!!

senarai kesyukuran

Caranya mudah:
1. Tajuk, Senarai Kesyukuran {insert nama anda, nama glemer atau tidak, terpulang}
2. Tuliskan semua benda tentang hidup anda, baik atau buruk.
3. Letakkan Saya bersyukur di hadapan setiap ayat tadi untuk mengubah semua ayat baik atau buruk kepada ayat baik dan positif.
4. Boleh dibuat dalam semua bahasa.
5. Saya bersyukur boleh ditukar kepada Saya gembira atau Saya bernasib baik. Tapi kalau begitu lebih baik tajuknya Senarai Kegembiraan atau Senarai Kenasib Baikkan. So jangan susahkan diri.

SENARAI KESYUKURAN ROZLIN SUHAIDA

sila abaikan gambar leher tengkuk ayam ini.akibatnya mengguna self timer:)

1. i am forever thankful to being blessed with good health, both physically and mentally.sihat walafiat walaupun tak makan makanan berkhasiat dan vitamin c.

2. i am thankful for the healthy beings of my financial matter even i am still in debt for my car loans, loans n more loans.

3.i am thankful for the loveliest bunch of the family members, if not the prettiest.cant never ask for the clone of my parents and siblings.hey, give them credits..they put up with me for 28 godem years!

4. i am thankful for the buddies i have and have had.i love them for what they do and have done, and sumtimes it is just beyond words how far a friend can save your soul.and for the best of friend, u know i owe u lots zar.

5. i am thankful for the good job n good pay (?) i have in this tempat jin bertendang. a beggar cant be choosy, i am not a beggar, so i can be choosy, but i choose not to be choosy (apa kau merapek ni setannnn!!!)

6. i am thankful becoz of thos job n good pay (?), i am able to feed my adrenaline for the lust of travelling, be it abroad or just simply langkawi.bali, singapore, jakarta, bandung, medan and apa lagi...new yorkkkkk (letak saja disini walaupun belum lagi.heheh...)

7. i am thankful i am named rozlin suhaida, not some sort of names a weirdo would apply. and be it that my name sounds nice on ur lips (cuba cakap lyn byk byk kali..ada irama kah?)

8. i am thankful i know how to recite quran, tat i discreetly knew tat my mum would belasah me if i didnt finish muqadam n quran..even on the perk of life that i was so into dancing and all the artsy stuff back in my school years.

9.i am thankful that i hate smoking. one puff per life (zaman gatal nak experience menda menda bongek).no way im gettin to it..ever ever again.

10.i am thankful i dun hate smokers. susahla aku nak dpt bf mcm ni..ramai plak jantan yang smoking tu..hahahha

11.i am thankful for the ability i have in creating my own lyric when i cudnt recall the original lyric of the song.to the fact that i am thankful becoz my disability has make people to poke fun at me and thus make em remember me for the rest of their life:).hehehhehe...

12.i am thankful coz i experience the greatest love,the terrible heartache, the loved and being loved, the smooch and the fight, the break ups and make ups.only that i know i am stronger and wiser and bitchier..not:)

toy and mok..status kekeluargaan tak diketahui.

13. i am thankful coz i have my cats who despite gonna poo and pee whenever n wherever they feel like it, they r gonna be the ones i 'turn' to on the downdest moment. sumtimes it is just easier talkin to beings who cant talk as they cant bable back atcha:)

14. i am thankful coz i know how to be thankful.

15. i am thankful i dun have terrible chronic disease.(as long as being too emotional and attached wont be considered as disease.or the acute anxiety on the dentist and stuff)

16. i am thankful that despite my kepala angin and panas baran, i have the softer side in me.that i love people i love. too much in fact.and i wud never bully cats, biawak, or apa saja minatang, or hit em on the road like a crazy lunatic driver.

17.i am thankful...that finally my internet connection at home is behaving well.YEHUUUUU!!

18.i am thankful that my siblings, my sisters specifically still entrust me with all sort of gossips of their lives and not afraid to hear whatever i wud say.

19. i am thankful that despite all the gibberish ramblings and the thoughtless thought i have had here, the web counters almost hit 500.hehehhe..

20.i am thankful that finally i am able to do things without people askin me to, and not bound to follow people say n wish.

21. i am thankful sebab hari ni bebual mesra dgn brader tmnet yg ckp aku nye username sgt comel.hahahha..gatai.

22.i am thankful for my sense of humor (level of stupidity and maturity will be determined soon).jelik tak jelik korang ketawa je kan?kannnn?

23. i am thankful coz i know how to value good food, am not being the picky eater (even i dun do veggie, ikan - ikan sungai, petai, paru, limpa, hati, bla..bla..bla..).

24. i am thankful coz i am not socially retarded.i can mingle.i am all good when it comes to talking to strangers.i even talk to the women who destroyed my engagement.i can.providing the assurance that u are not crazy and know how to reply to my utterances:)

25. i am thankful for who i am.i am not revengeful.smirk all you want.but as i keep on saying, if i try to hate, then i hate to try.

26. i am thankful coz my mum is one good cook even if is just a can of sardine she just know how to turn it good.and her sambal?blast off habis!

27. i am thankful for i know whoever i end up marrying soon, he will have the fair share of love that my parents cud give. its not a guarantee, but it's the belief that they always put in me

28.i am thankful i am a muslim and not solely claiming one.

29.i am thankful coz i am a good driver. i drive fast and still obedient to the rules of the traffic. (siapa naik keretaku sila pakai tali pinggang.cool ke tak cool ke aku tanak korang mati percuma tak pakai tali pinggang keledar).

30.i am thankful i am able to do finish this.(kalau mati before tekan butang publish cemana?tak sempat nak baca aku nye 'rambleness' kan kan???

there i did it.and u know what...there are thousands..if not billions more to express the thankfulness.given it a time and space and it does you good:).as one of the my fav blog says, if one of the above has been shut of and been taken away, i am still proud to say that i do have my 29 more:).

menciknye!!!

i hate the internet connection back home and you dont wanna know where the heck i am blogging rite now!!!..updates when im truly back to kuantan.

ps: cc ni charge aku rm2.50 sejam.mahal ke?

akulah gergasi itu

i tink i shud just change my blog to penny for food, rather than penny for a thought, coz i realized that 80% of my ramblings and whatsnot are all based on the glory of food, be it like what i ate, what luncheon we went to, what party be it next bla bla bla.and then, just so you know, im gonna talk about what i did for my luncheon hour today...which was off to BASKIN ROBBINS!
well, the initial plan was to belanja us for the baskin robbins' cake.oh lupa lak..nih zarina punya treat for her belated birthday.rasa nak meletup perut even for only 2 scoops of icecream.i chose the combination of berry berry strawberry and the strawberry cheesecake.much to my dear friends' amazement and amusement, i was able to finish the whole scoops okayyyyy!!sila tabik hormat pada aku.ckp lagi aku slalu tak habis makanan!ahhahah..

oh sebelum mula aktiviti melantak ice cream, my stomach was growling hard n ive told everyone (terima kasih for my big mouth!) that im gonna get those big apple donuts on my way home, twister kfc and a starbuck marchiato (yet again!).but on my last spoonful of the icecream, perut aku mula la nak terjeluak, tak rasa nak makan apa apa dah.aku relaaa.....gelakkan la kat aku...for all my cakap besar and grediness!!!!aku tak kisahhhhhhh...mak tak kisahhhh...biar!! biar!!!

unfortunately, i can just only plan.

nak meletup perut macam mana pun, tetap bawak balik twister kfc dgn big apple donuts.ehhe...

those 48hrs...

ive changed to about 6 templates for my blog in the last 48 hours.geez...i shud know there's the better thing to indulge in besides changing the background every now n then.saja..experimenting with those oh so pretty backdrops and looks how it changes ur page and give additional lift up element to it..(hahhaha..i so dont need to justify myself aite?).went to kuantan n secured myself the ticket home to perlis this friday.balik lagi!hhehe..
my cough is gettin better (not that anyone askin anyway:)), but the mucus..??!!!..it gets stuck on my nostril n just before i got myself into a light nap this evenin (if u cud call a 2 hrs nap as a lite one!), i needed to breathe thru my mouth!.rasa mcm ikan gopi pun ada jugak.and my nose have those 'bebulu' condition (when it gets all dry and the skin keeps peeling off).benci aku!like i need to make it moist all the time by applying moisturiser and lotion n thus resulted to my bling bling nose reflection.(bling bling bukan sebab aku nak jadi 50 cents ke puff daddy ke apa ye..bling bling sebab hidung aku berkilat kilat for that extra moisturising effect).
my stomach doesnt do me justice either.felt bloated.blamed for all the sushis/caramel macchiato/burger daging cafe admin i had tis afternoon.erkk...erkk..je tak abis abis dr tadi and had been burping like crazy.
nak mandilah kejap.kalau mandi pukul 12 mlm kang dpt paru paru berair.ehheheh

and you called that a weekend.

if u are picturing my deepavali hols full of socialising events, then u are wrong.ive spent my whole hols doing sth that i know i wont regret doin even if it eats the whole holidays i had, which is to go home to perlis and visit my 'padaiyappa' in the hospital.never realised that abah's condition has forced him to undergo an operation, n that sumhow explained of his suffer from the neverending fever n whats not.went to kl on friday, yeah it's not 7am as i imagined it wud be, it was close to noon when i actually drove myself out from kuantan.picked aten n went for her party dress hunting in bangsar n damansara.ended up with me buying a nice black spageti dress which i didnt even intend to buy in the first place.gosh...i am soo buying it just becoz the shop got a pleasant salesgirl!called home n then we got to know that abah's condition was not improving n doc suggested he went for an operation to remove his 'boil', if u wanna name it that way.

saturday mornin-went to pudu with the rest of rosli's clan for the ticket hunting.boy, aint easy finding a ticket home when u gotta fight the throng of people heading back to their hometown!luckily we got ourselves return ticket, just the matter of time before all the tickets were sold out.since the ticket said 1030pm, we spent the rest of the afternoon lepakin at aten's place in bangsar.lepak lepak borak borak dan tido tidoan.reaching perlis at almost dawn, about 5am or so.mandi lebih kurang n drove mama's car to kedah medical centre.abah's op was due in the afternoon, but later being reschedule since his blood level were really high.about 18!needed an insulin to stabilise his glucose level.lepak lepak ngan abah n dok perabiskan duit mama suh dia belanja makan kat cafe spital.

sunday afternoon-abah went to the op theater.sempat lagi buat lawak before he being pushed on the cart.."org masuk teater pakai baju kot, aku masuk teater pakai baju nampak montot".hahahha..very not funny at the moment u know.

sunday afternoon noon-still waiting for abah to come out.lama jugak.went in at about 3 sth, n finally went out at almost 5pm.

sunday evening-being 'halau'ed by mama.wanted us to go home n rest since aten n i nye bus departs at 930 am in the mornin.she wanted us to go home n sleep well.sian kat mama je would be left alone in the hosp.after much assurances and urges, we left her with abah which was still under sedation.

monday morning-drove to kmc as early as 7am.met abah n mama.stay till about 9am n headed to bus station for the route back to kl with aten.glad to see abah was awake n dah boleh amik breakfast.

monday afternoon-reaching kl, took kebal from paen, sent aten back to ipba n drove back to kuantan.

yes i know.t'was supposed to be really tiring day all in all, but no qualms there.seeing abah even if it is just a day,to make sure that he is okay, is all that worth.:)

cough cough.

was supposed to go to kl in the afternoon, but due to the unhealthy being of yours truly, then have to reschedule the plan.cewahh..reschedule tuh...!i was down with sore throat n mild cough.got to be the weather since it hasnt stop pouring in the afternoon, well..almost every afternoon now it seems.since syida is already left to kl earlier n i was soooo lazy to cook, just opt for a pasar malam satay to ease the hunger pang.thought of goin to bed early since the initial plan is to 'gerak khas' ke kl as early as 7am, but got so engrossed with my new project i only realized it is almost 11.30pm n i have yet to pack my clothes!well then got to sign it off now:)

on the other note..emot is discharged and abah hasnt being well for almost a week now.i am worried of him and most probably thinking of goin straight to perlis.guess tis is just the unwell month for everybody, eh?

letter to pocoyo

dear my universe..

please get better..mummy really really sicks knowing that you are sick.if only mummy knows what mummy should do.gosh, do you know how much u mean to mummy?mummy just wants the best for you even if mummy needs to go to the end of the world to find you the cure.

right now, mummy is looking at you sleeping.for these past few days, mummy is in the downdest moment.my beloved son is sick.do you know how u freak mummy out just by not having a healthy poo?do you know how lil sleep that mummy had these days, worrying and checkin so you would not befall with this unknown sickness again?do you know, mummy cursed the illness and hoping that it would be mummy instead who is sick?

so dear, please..please...get better.dun let mummy worries again.mummy just 'crumple like a cheap tracing paper' thinking of u.

mummy might not be able to jot this down for you since mummy is nursing you in the hospital, but mummy knows...if these going to be translated into words, then these are what mummy would feel..

mummy erin.

do you KNOW me?

ouuuh...2 entries in a nite?..now that's what we called bloggingbug:)

STATE 10 WEIRD HABITS OR LIL KNOWN FACTS ABOUT YOURSELF:

1) i hate slimey creatures..namely cacing n ulat (just to write the names themselves give me shiver..iyarkkhh).i dun fool around when it comes to these 2 creatures.how to put it so u wud understand perfectly eh?mcm ni la...let say dekat plastik sampah yg disimpan 3 4 hari lupa nak buang (i know it gross, but it happened.heheh), u cud see that tiny teeny lil creatures climbing on top (double iyarrkhh!!), saya sanggup kemas bilek anda selama sebulan as long as u wud help me throwin the whole things out (things= pakej sampah dan ulat ulatan).in nother occasion, i used to bail out from washing the vege once stumbled on ulat daun, which surely resulted in Puan Inson babbling nonstop.aaaaa...tak sanggup!so, i STILL DUN GET why people venture themselves into this cacing enterpreneuring stuff.tak ke gila.ternak ayam itik je tak boleh ke?

2)i talk to my car.i am not crazy.it just that i believe u shud talk good things to him (my car is a him.ye aku gatal.tapi dia suka selak kain perempuan).i motivate him before the long journey like..err..on a second thought, tak payah la bagitau.mcm jijik je dialognye pun.hahha..i thank him once reaching the journey.and i normally plead him not to cause any trouble when the payday is still far. and oh, i called myself kakak.hahahha (aku dah kata bunyinya jijik).

3)i HAVE to sleep in an uncreased bedsheet.even if i am really really late to work n cudnt make up the bed, it has to be well made before i sleep.akan tarik cadar kemas kemas, susun all the haiwan nicely on the position..dan terjun ke katil untuk tido.heheh.kerja sia sia. (pls refer to the above pic untuk gambar 'sebelum')

4)i am one of those supercry you know.i cried watching sad cartoon (The Lion King..boleh?), i cried for julia roberts in My Best Friend's Wedding.i cried for the fights i have had with my siblings and good friends.i cried when i felt my parents being biased (perasaan bodoh di kala anda belum baligh).i cried for other people's sadness (lost of mother, unhealthy being of a son etc),i still cry for my late angah and wan kulim, i cried for all my dead cats and recently, i cried for pakcik teksi yang grad dapat phd itu.meroyan takk?..:)

5)i am a movie freak.bukan sebab aku gila movie...bukan.freak here means that if i am obsessed with one movie, let say..cerita Taal yang ada aishwarya rai tu, i wud google to know the movie bloopers, beli kaset yang full soundtrack lagu lagu dia (hahah..beli kat Mydin je nak) dan layan cerita Taal versi TAMIL sampai habis walaupun subtitle tak kuar kuar sampai ending!.

6)another must have session.i must HAVE my lipstick/glosses/vaseline at all time except at home laaa...gila apa tenyeh lipstick dok umah je kan?even the taintest color would do.i dun want to be mistaken of having fever/illness/being unwell...yet again.seriously!gila pucat muka aku takde lip..lapliplap merahnya makngah (dialog iklan bank dolu dolu).huahhaha.

7)saya tengah/pernah (which i hope 'pernah') menjadi seorang yang panas baran.and not proud of it.i cursed on the road (aku tau mak aku baca ni nanti..huhuh) sumtimes i just wonder how a person who is sensitive and romantic at heart (YES, i am), cud have all the anger.but the good thing is, i dun keep the anger long.the anger subsides less than an hour.and i dun keep hatred on people, no matter how bad things are.i just can't.

8)aku takut doktot gigi, which explain why sum of the gigi aku tak pegi sekolah.hahhah

9)while i was a kid, i most probably was the naughtiest kid in the neighbourhood.stakat hanger besi (bukan pelastik hanger mcm zaman skarang ye), ranting jambu, getah paip air, feather duster, joran..dah rasa belaka.and i stole buah mata kucing jiran on the way pegi ngaji quran.and korek makan kacang dari plastik yang terbukak kat kedai and..tahap kedekut nak mampus. i was so stingy...not with my belonging, but with all my makciks and pakciks n my tok n wan 's belonging.jangan harap nak pinjam basikal wan aku, unless you wud want to hear me scream n shout like a banshee.

10)i am a hopeless romantic at heart.ye..sila rasa geli dgn statement ini:)

DONE!now..i am tagging:

a)acikcik ke cik kebom

b)nadya e.

and everyone who likes and enjoy cut n paste (since aku dpt ni dgn cara itu.huhuahuah...)

pot luck get together gether!

gambar-gambar bukan hiasan.gambar sebenar.sila rasa lapar:)


ini bukan bahan basah.ini adry

jeng..jeng..jeng...syida and i did tis for the luncheon!

kukusan rahsia....

nasi impit mini yang indah

tangan syida dan kacang panjang

ini bukan bazar ramadan

all about fat, carb and heaven..hehehhe..

well..i only reached lina's place at almost 4pm due to the unhealthy condition of emot.acik and i rushed him to HTAA to seek further treatment since his bloody poo poo wont stop.acik was crazily worried about emot's condition and i did too.sian kat gelimot.whats with the flu, cough and bad poo poos.so after sending acik and her son to HTAA (we get thru every stages of examining emot before he was admitted to pediatric ward), and rushing to lina's for zuhur prayer, then it came to my awareness....MAK OII.. BANYAKNYA MAKANAN!seriously!it cud feed the whole Tanzania.ckp je jenis carbs apa semua ada.hahahha!they got behun siam, mee calong, laksa, prawn olio, lontong (cehh...nak sebut jugak tu.huhu),caramel apa ntah namanya, cheesecake,cucur udang (the real cucur udang yang ada udang ...bukan stakat letak udang kecut mcm kat pasar malam tuh ye) and buah buahan dan air airan.since ive gotten my lunch with acik at the hospital cafe, so i was kinda dealing with the bloated tummy n cud eat just a lil.

writing tis has sumhow resulted in growlin tummy.ceh!

iron chef

YAY!!!ther's gonna be makan makan at lina's place tomorrow.but if u tink that it's gonna be open house she will have, then u hit wrong.we are going to have pot luck party that's it.so me n syida set everythin beforehand, i mean we are only gonna cook early in the morning.just to prepare bahan bahan basah je..nih pun tangan still pijar blend cili kering.masak apa?that u have to wait n find it out tomorrow.heeheh

besnye makan makan....(yeeess.....i am indeed still in the lust over food mood:)

titleless

i would travel to the end of the world and back..to do everything possible for as long as i am still breathing...to the people that i love n worth my love...

guilty pleasure...or pressure..or both?

i ate like a pig...!geez..dunno what posses me that makes me gobble food extraordinaire.no...saya tak makan seekor lembu seorang diri..not like that.but those who know corak pemakanan saya akan sedia maklum that i dun eat much (not for the diet matter, but i kinda of guessin that my pintu perut dah mengecil.heh).or if i eat in the afternoon i wud stay full till the next day.betul!

tapi itu duluuuuu...

now i see food as sth marvelous..a pleasure..like if u dun taste it now u wud regret it later.but this does not base on grediness sebab i always feel hungry.why eh? for example..we went our for sushi outing on tuesday since it's RM2 per plate of sushi promotion.i got 2 plates of sushi and one whole set of piri piri chicken.bila balik rumah, dah start craving on nasik campoq sebab tgk serunding cikgu inson on the table.padahal yang tadi pun tak sempat hadam lagi aku rasa.and for yesterday, i ate 2 plates of different food for my breakfast, nasi lemak and behun goreng, got nasik campor for luncheon, sebemban plastik of goreng pisang in the late afternoon, and behun sup for dinner.well, not much u say? how bout i munched kuweh raya dari pagi sampai malam in between the heavy meals.dah jadik snacking mcm tu.there are lots!

i tink my devotion on food must derive from these few reasons:

1) im getting my period and will have my period in coming time.
2) i am stressful for unknown reasons.haishhh.i dun feel stress..but maybe im in stress.agaknya pak lah rasa mcm ni la gamaknya kann...?
3)i miss my mom.laugh all u want.but just spending time with her n apak last weekend feels like i am the only kid they have.hahaha..but i do miss her
4)i am having my period.definitely.

kali pertama saya

First Time to Cook My Own Rice
before i reached puberty..ceewahhh..but then again to be honest, i started to know how to cook rice when i was in standard six kot.canggih kan?all thanks to cikgu inson aka my mom who cudnt stand me watchin tv alone n not lifting a finger in the kitchen.so 2 basic tasks that i wud normally involve in were potong bawang n masak nasik:)

First Time to Learn AlQuran
rumah tok su man (he is one fierce cikgu koran i tell u!!), still remember how we wud pluck buah mata kucin in our neighbour's property on the way to tok su man's house.gila kan, sempat melahap buah curi on the way pegi ngaji quran.huhauhaua

First Time to Have a Laptop
in KMPH.big, bulky, hideous, unsophisticated, mahal nak mampus NEC laptop.13 riban siot.


First Time to be Away from My Parents
sek men keb derma hostel. i just didnt get why i offered myself to live in the hostel since my house is just 2 km away from my school.i stayed for a week then cabut lari.bosan ah!

First Time to Write a Story
form 4 ke form 5, cant remember.i wrote a teenage story about my gang (we are 5 alltogether, consisting of lia, elin tomboy, che awa babyish, deqna and urs truly).got love stories, family conflicts and everything that Ahadiat Akashah has.:)

First Time to Clubbing
eh eh..sibuk nak tau kenapa?curious ye...curiousssss...

First Time Fall in Love
cant remember. i fall in and out of love.or crush.or fling every 2 seconds in kindergarten.hahah.ok ok my first crush with this guy name mohd ehsan, kelas cemerlang semasa di form5.i realy like him since he looks like alex yoong.

First Time to See the world officially
morning of 2 march 1980

First Time to Buy A Guy Something
i bought my father a clinique happy for men deodarant.wanting to buy him perfume, but exceeded the budget, so dapatlah deodarant berperisa clinique itu sahaja

First time to be a middle person
my female best friend was totally in love with my best male friend.so i was the postman.

First Time to Understand What is Life..
when i first knew the feeling of being happy, being crushed, laughed crazily, cried heavily and so forth. i try to understand life every single day.

First Time to Learn Silat
tak terlintas di otak saya dulu, sekarang atau selamanya.mcm tak glemer je.

First Time to Meet A King
tis i had to agree with acik.the king of pahang during the tumultous controversial period of time!

My Very First Best Friend
tis oso to agree with acik.who cud keep a secret better than yours truly? hi hi hi (gelak setan sebab banyak sgt rohasiaaa..)

First Time to Realise that I am Actually A Slow Learner
i am a slow learner. always.hahah..slow learner but an avid one!

First Time to Play Online RPG Game
aku hanya tau main pacman and bookworm

First time to live in UK
mcm mana ko tau ni?kih kih

First Time to Understand Others do Care ABout Me
they cried when i cried.cewahhh...seriously.when they do that then i know.ive seen this with acik.

.First Time to think about diet
sebelum aku putus tunang aku rasa buncit dan peha yg besar, masa itulah niat diet yang melampau.ehhehe skang diet no moreeeee....:P

Joyeux anniversaire!!

Your birthdays are sweet,
Never discreet
They taste like honey,
Always so funny.
The sweetest cake,
We would always bake,
With sugar or cane,
Never the same.
Wishing you,
the sweetest day
that's filled with sugar,
In every way

jangan sedih sedih ok:)

tanjobi omedeto gozaimasu zarina!

to my everdearest zarina zainal..

on this day, u deserve to be happy/ kooky/ blithe/crazy/ecstatic ...and not a person cud be mad at'cha...:)

HAPPY BURFDAY MA CHERIE!!!

thanks for all the things uve done n no words cud describe how i value everythin:)

raya pixies:)

ive known these people since i was 15

otw to tok's house

hurryyy..the photog wont wait for us:P

selendang raya:)

cornflakes coated chocolate

cornflakes coated chocolate with nuts




the raya stories will be posted later eh..im wayy tired to think of words.just got back to kuantan to be exact:).see u tmrow:)

tag raya:P

Berapa pasang baju raya anda tahun ini dan kaler apakah?
2+1, dua yang saya tempah, lagi satu saya bantai beli di klsentral sebab ia ada manik manik.saya suka glemer di pagi raya.semuanya bercorak batik supaya senang dilenjan ke opis pada setiap hari kamis.

Apakah makanan raya tradisional kegemaran anda?
serunding cikgu inson dan ayam masak merah pedas makan dengan ketupat dawun palas.setahun sekali je jumpa semua ni.

Apakah biskut raya kegemaran anda?
saya suka conflake cekelat yang saya buat dengan aten.manis manis n rasa cekelat yg melimpah ruah (promote tak hingat!).selain itu saya juga suka makan semperit ceri merah dan tat nanas.

Berapa banyak duit raya anda dapat n spend untuk bagi kepada budak-budak?
saya sudah bekerja jadi saya tidak dpt duwet raya.tahun lepas saya bagi rm3 je sebab sengkek tade bonus.tahun ni macam lebih skit(kurang periksa..mungkin sama je.ehhehe).saya teringin dapat duwet raya lagi tapi sedar saya dah kertu tak sesuai dapat duwet raya.(saya akan cuba buat rayuan kepada ibu bapa saya)

Apakah aktiviti malam raya korang?
malam raya saya layan apek gitu gitu raya2006 di tibi tiga sambil carik ayam untuk buat serunding.

Apakah lagu raya terbaik korang?
saya layan je semua lagu raya.katanya main sekali setahun je.jadi..layannnnnnnn

preraya pixies!

flyin chillies, the gardens

pineapple fried rice, flying chillies, the gardens

the menu

my pineapple fried rice, in comparison...at absolute thai (absolutely no boat of pineapple here!)

sahur session at copycatcafe

rm8 burger for sahur anyone?

the day when shopping was a hassle

cant believe that there cud be throng of people who prefer having their shopping done at the very last minutes!moi included ...actually.we went to pkns on saturday, in the hope to get our baju raya.DUN EVER DREAM OF IT!!serious tak sanggup!there were too many people u cudnt even barely see the baju hangin.gosh...!!!so, we headed to midvalley instead, since ina was having her bowling tournament.now that is another prob.hunting a place to eat.close of being fed up with the condition(just imagine that we were still standing scouting for eateries while people started to fill the restaurant they made the booking.so aten made a suggestion to head to gardens instead, n her choice of place is this thai restaurant called flyin chillies (much to my amazement since i went to the similar eatery in ikano with aten the day before, it just that the later is called absolute thai).bloated with food, we moved to kl sentral aten told us that kl sentral got these shoplots for baju raya too.now, tis is what i called as a last minute shopping spree.... i only got about less than an hour to get my baju raya since the lots close at 930pm,nasib baik dapat jugak!!ehhehehe..and on sunday we boarded our flight back to perlis.so as i am writing this out, i am finally restin from the duty of cleanin the house, baking cookies and making myself bz with the cats.hahahaha.well then, in case i dun get the chance to log on to my blog tomorrow, here's the wish..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA DARI HUJUNG RAMBUT KE HUJUNG KAKI.MAAF ZAHIR BATIN DARIPADA SAYA YANG SERBA ADA KELEMAHAN INI.:)

my bitterness and sarcasm will be continued after raya ye...

versus!

i found this on the net, n i have the answers for every things u guys say here.:)

The Man Rules ..... At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down, Finally , the guys' side of the story. (I must admit, it's pretty good.) We always hear "the rules" From the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules! Please note.. these are all numbered "1 " > ON PURPOSE!
1. Men are NOT mind readers. -yes, tat is why we have to keep on feeding your brain

2. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down. -we leave it down since we dun wanna see ur poo poos floating.oh that, if you dont know the meaning of 'flushing'

3. Sunday sports It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. -sunday is the day when we have the whole day to go manja manja, pampered you guys like a greek god or sth. well now we take it back since u dun need it anyway

4. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way. -yes it is!it works on your feet and hand muscle..providing you are wearing 2 inches of heels!

5. Crying is blackmail. -just becoz u guys gonna be called as a wimp if u cry then do go blaming us when we use the sole weapon to survive:)

6. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it! . Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question. -if we ask a prada and louboutin on the feet, we dont expect a NO, no?

7. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for. -that's why man make the worst counsellor.PERIOD.

8. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days. -that's it, if u can recall what we said yesterday, much more to what happened 6 months back.ha ha.

9. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us. -we ask you coz u keep on comparing us to the skinny b****es on the runway.if u care to shut ur mouth then we dun bother to ask.

10. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one -and this comes from a species who claim they are not a mind reader?how can we tell you then?

11. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.-we try to act frail.we respect ur ego:)

12. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.. -we have to go make ur godamn cup of tea or coffee or milo or whatever u desire during that commercial!where got time to say anythin meh?

13. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we. -who says we give u direction?we just give u support with a lil bit of instruction just to get things done the right way:)

14. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is. -and we have no idea why a bunch of men running against a ball within a period of time.that u call a sport?

15. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that. -we itch too, we just dun go PUBLIC DISPLAY

16. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle. -what if we say yes and pouring you all the matter?would u even care to sit and listen to us for 2 hours, maybe?heck, you even only talk during commercials!

17. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.-and we dun expect you to say you love us and yet fooling around with nother women even for a mere whistling and catcalling!

18. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really . -then why do u keep on glancing on our butt?breast?stomach?and make faces to show your disapproving look?

19. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as soccer or racing.-we are prepared.u just dun wanna give us a try.trust us.we have palin and condolezza rice in each of us.

20. You have enough clothes.-and you have enough cds collection and jersey and sneakers and cigarretes and cars .we dun complain.

21. You have too many shoes. -but yet we have to find the right one, righttttt?????

22. I am in shape. Round IS a shape! -we know..we know..that's why we keep on ogling on brad pitt till now:)

. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.-and yes..please count the couch as ur permanent crib too for now:)

ahhaha..how's that in return?

pocoyo:)

emot is my bestie's son.i always tell acik that she is one lucky mummy to have this ladies man by her side now.well, she endured pain (to say figuratively n literally ...) to be given aemir zikry.how that 2 years are all its worth:) .i cant really put in words how much this means to her.but i just know:). il auntie lo ama, pocoyo!!

bon apetit

otw to east coast

tis gonna be the final week i would be spending ramadan with my buddies esp aciko.let see..so far we have raid swan, delifrance, kenny rogers,more of swan, affa the tak sedap lansung steamboat restaurant and most of it are the cooking session at home.so, today...acik and i choose sth different...

which is...

SUSHI!mine was the piri piri chicken with rice n miso soup plus the sushi with shredded chicken mayo, while acik got the variation of sushis and set of fish.the orders made by us yang tak pose.hahahahha..the regular cycle anyway..dun blame us!

tomorrow...it's gonna be another break fast session:)

an hour assignment

cilok this from zyerila's blog.sowie baby..kak ol kinda bored n not sleepy (thanks to 2 cans of nescafe i drank today!sheeshhh......

Starting time : 2339 pm
Name : oling wolie suhaida
Sisters : eena n miububu
Brothers : paen
Shoe size : standard size 6
Height : near hobbit..150s cm
Where do you live : the KKK (kuantan/kl/kangar .that's it..if u good enuff to figure it out)
Have you ever Been on a plane : yeah..i love the flight food anyway.haha
Swam in the ocean : dun really fancy gettin the sand into my pants
Fallen asleep at school : cant!moi students would point me out.where to put the face maa...???
Broken someone’s heart : reverse the question pleaseee?
Fell off your chair : never kot..nahhh..i cud be clumsy n absentminded.so the probability is there.kui kui kui..
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : N.O
Saved e-mails : YES!
What is your room like : i loike my room.ada cadar bunga bunga, ada lembu, ada pokok..mcm serene je.cewahhhh
What is the last thing you ate : sweet sour ikan siakap yg tasteless.
Ever had Chicken pox : cant remember this one.maybe not.
Sore throat :no
Stitches : yes:)i saw it bein sewn on the shin.
Broken nose : nooooooo
Do you blieve in love at first sight : sumtimes i do.but a sight alone can be wrong..u need to hear, touch, smell n taste (taste..???hahahha..)
Like picnics : if picnic like packed sardine sandwich n cheap cordial, boringggg!!
Who was were the last person u danced with : wayyyyyy back then...i tink its eena.
Last made you smile : emot mot
Today did you talk to someone you like : siapa?
Kissed anyone : emot mot
Talk to an ex :WHAT for?
Miss someone : moi 10 years back..crazier n 'bitch'ier
Who do you really hate: ultimate cheater.well honestly, i dun hate people.how much i even try to hate, then i hate to try
Do you like your hand-writing :so n so..all roundish and bulat bulat cam buah oren
Are your toe nails painted : nope
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : is tis a sexual related question coz if it is, then it's gonna be ur bed.hahaha..
What color shirt are you wearing now : green n white babydoll top
Are you a friendly person : i am, giving me a friendly person to.i dun entertain ice queen
Do you have any pets : obviously.there got mok, jade n risotto leadin the bunch!
Do you sleep with the TV on : no..with the comp on..yes:)
What are you doing right now : completing this tag, listenin to ms spark n cramping my neck by completing the tag :P
Can you handle the truth : blatantly said by the loved ones.?then have to swallow it n succumb to the truth
Are you closer to your mother or father : both la kot.abah is more sentimental, mama lil bit garang
Do you eat healthy : healthy as if feastin on veggie?NO WAY!
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : i left it sumwhere 'unfindable'
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : moi phoebe..haha
Are you loud or quiet most of the time : depends.my loudness got volumes to it.it is adjustable.
Are you confident : sumtimes.but i chicken out for things i dun like

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1)crazy.fun.bookworm. a nerd in the making.hahahha
2)dating a guy by the name of norhisyam khamis
3)livin in hostel with this bunch of people i loved n still love(u know who u are)
4)crazy crazy matriculation year.hey english is never an easy subject okay!
5)breakin up with the guy mentioned above

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1) donate.i have one particular place where i wanna donet.in the rememberance of my dear angah, i wud donate for thos who suffer from cancer.SERIOUSLY.
2) parents.siblings. ckp je nak hape..mak cik kayooooo
3) globetrotting (new york tuh bley balik hari je la kan kan kan?)
4) shoppin like a lady gone mad!
5) emm..now i wud save some.:)

5 of my bad habits
1) superduperwuper sensitive moi is
2) cursing.amazingly ive been cured.(bet it's gonna be smirk ere!)
3) worrywart.i worry too much for the blah matters
4) i love people too much(cudnt agree more with u baby!)
5) panas baran.garang.

5 places I am living in
1) p1-t3-03
2) taman norma, kangar perlis
3) vista pinggiran putra
4) umah tok...besnyee:)
5) ................

finish time:2441 am

DONE!!!hahhahah..skang baru boleh tido!keje skolah ini dah complete.:)

f.r.i.e.n.d.s :)

...and i can't do it without my phoebe :)

pagi yang gelap

sebelum aku buat benda yang tak sepatutnya (which is mencarut of course..ye la aku kan ke pretentious......!!!!), baik aku elak dari dpat dosa kering dengan menulih skit dalam blog ni.


KOLEJ AKU NI MEMANG TAK GUNA!!APA DIA INGAT KAMI KULI BATAK HAMBA ABDI KE CUTI SEMINGGU TUH PUN KORANG HARUK NAK AMIK?PEGI MAM...(err....maafla...nak tercarut lak..)


dah la..penat la tulis dalam bahasa melayu.dah la komp ni pun cam #$%@$%#@!!!!!

on the 17th day of Ramadan...

tadaaa.......our nasik ayam on the first trial:)

nasik ayam and the murtabak maggi on the left

最後にこれは土曜日!!!!!

well..as being mentioned in my previous tag..of what ive been wanting to do this holiday, yes people..i really really woke up late.like late!about 3 pm ot sth.dasyat kan?its like paying revenge to all my sleepless n late nite sleep that i hardly have these days:).then, went out to break fast..again in swan.to our delight, there was a chinese wedding taken place in the same venue, siap layan slide show bride and groom lagi.no wonder la swan full house.one thing i noticed tho, these wedding attendees dont really care much of what they wear, so simple some even look like they just got back from kebun or sth.ehehhe..seriously!unlike malay wedding, which most of the guests fight their best to look good and dashing.ada yg overly dress up mengalahkan pengantin!went to megamal to fix my watch and off to east coast mall for a starbuck vanilla latte.since i want to cook up the storm (literally!) for a break fast session at home tomorrow, singgah jap kat giant for some cut chicken.been dreaming to savour chicken curry till now.nyummsss!!!

anonymous stupiditos

for a mentally retarded jantan/ pempuan/khunsa who kindly enuff stopping by at my page and called me keling to watever ive written here..maybe ..just maybe u dun understand simple english.and if u do,do tell me where is the f**kin connection of not believin in relationship and for being woken up by 'him' for sahur.kesian...

Anonymous said...
29. Do you have a crush?nope.i rather breath it all alone than having to endure another crushed.unlike sum people who guilt free having relationship rite after the wrecked 'ship'...im wayy not easy to believe that species again.

25. What time did you wake up this morning?ive been woken up by HIM at about 4.borak borak kejap sambung tido.515 then off to sahur
cakap mcm keling daa...
1:22 AM


apa apapun nampak sgt la laku jugak blog merapek aku nih sampai ada yg boleh highlight tuh.kui kui!!

tag yg panjang

1. Shortest relationship?
more like a fling this was..emm..about a week or two?

2. Last gift you received?
two similar mugs which ive coyly mentioned people to make it a gift.the one that i pasted on the previous posts.

3. Ever dropped a cell phone?
more like threw it on the wall:)

4. Last food you ate?
the scrumptious buka puasa session at Swan las nite

6. Last drink?
a tall glass of juicy cold watermelon juice:).

7. One favorite song?
for now..i tink JT what goes around comes around suits the mood well.

8. Where do you live?
currently hibernating in pahang.might as well as change the add for the new later:(

9. Last wedding you attended:
i dun do weddings for now.

10. Last time you saw your friend?
i see em all everyday.and the latest was last nite when we went out munching on that big fat break fast session.

11. Where is your favorite place to eat with friends?
black canyon east coast mall..up until ive been matched with this nepalese by the duo, acik n her sista.ceh dengan nepal pun jadi ke?hahahhah..

12. Can you cook?
YES.u shud try my kari ikan tenggiri.aku rasa sedapla.

13. Last time you cried?
ive stopped wasting tears.enuff said!

14. Why?
no use and what a waste cryin over stupidity n blind of eyes, eh?

15. Hate most about yourself?
when i was still in my free hair zone, i so dissed my frizzy hair i wish i cud go all britney.so now no more hating.so apa yang aku benci ye?oh yes..my in depth empathy n love which sumhow not lettin me do the justice to my life

16. Can you sing?
i can carry out a tune.

19. Do you like coffee?
i like it milky.but given a choice i wud prefer good ol nescafe classic and yes with milk :)

20. Last person who sends you a message?
aten.on the behalf of paen after i went berserk for him not answerin the phone nor replyin to any of my messages.

21. What was the last text message you received?
k.lin, abang dah takdak kredit nak reply msg.ceh sengkek rupanya adik aku

22. Can you play pool?
boleh la masuk lubang dua tiga bola

23. Can you swim?
enrolling in the private classes with azlin and the gang.well..yet:)

24. Favorite flavor of ice cream?
baskin robbins burst of orange and all of its citrusy flavours.kecur air liur..

25. What time did you wake up this morning?
ive been woken up by him at about 4.borak borak kejap sambung tido.515 then off to sahur

26. What are you doing this week?
most probably cosyin at home, sleepin n the regular basis.well..most probably goin out for break fast..again

27. Are you smiling?
smiling sheepishly like there is no valid reason?duhh im not tat crazy

28. Do you miss someone right now?
i miss my ol vibrant all nonsense me.

29. Do you have a crush?
nope.i rather breath it all alone than having to endure another crushed.unlike sum people who guilt free having relationship rite after the wrecked 'ship'...im wayy not easy to believe that species again.

30. Do you have a sister?
i have sisters

31. Who is your closest cousin’s name?
nadya e.

32. What were you doing 10 minutes ago?
rushing to the p.o to pay my nearly overdue streamyx bill

33. if you were a color, what would you be?
mysterious black

34. if you could go anywhere right now, where?
back to perlis..to the comfort of home

35. Food you're craving for right this minute?
im still fulled since the last sahur.

36. Name a person whose name starts with the letter d?
dindang ah suami amiyah

38. Radio station you frequently listen to?
my cd player normally does the work.but if given a choice, it wud be fly fm

39. Where do you usually hang out?
in kuantan, just being at home n sumtime in east coast mall. in kl gotta be the curve n midvalley.

40. if you were to change careers, what would you want it to be?
tai tai.devilishly rich n spoilt socialite.pehhhh...perasan tak hingat

41. What are you going to do tomorrow?
wake up late.cmon ..its saturday!

43. Are you easy to get along with?
YES.

44. What movie do you want to see right now?
i just want to watch my long overdue American Next Top Model season 10.pretty please spare me the time!

45. Whose birthday is coming up?
acik cik ke cik ke bum.

46. How many kids do you want?
4..the more the merrier

47. Where do you usually watch movies?
cd player. i hardly have time to watch it in cinemas

48. Name one person which starts with the letter "m"?
mama:)

49.Favorite things that you have now?
have to agree with nadya.mr muscle for the stubborn stain!

50. where will be your next holiday?
new york.serious weh!!!

life is all about makin stupid unwise choices:)

i always believe that in life, there are choices to be made.n the choices will sumhow turn u to be a wiser being or simply an immature bastard.its all about making indecisive choices.u never know until u take the road and experience it.which actually what i am doin now.im stuck with choices!!

shud i get myself the new ambience?shud i move?shud i stay?shud i?????

pressures wont help, it only deepened the problem.it wont solve it.so please hear me out patiently eventho i know how much u want me to go back to the comfort of home.

ntah la..time's tickin. if only i have the wizard's ball to foresee the future:)

masak session!

well..since it's sunday n this is the only day where we are entitled for a holiday (we worked yesterday for that replacement classes for raya), ive planned to cook.but there are so many things tat i wanna feed my hunger palate!ok..shud i go with kari ikan tenggiri n sayur campur daging?or kari ayam with ikan goreng sambal?n the desert sumore...wud it be simple goreng pisang ? or rather try the new recipe of murtabak maggi?

tgk je la apa ada atas meja kejap lagi kan.ehhehe..off now, need to get started!

the day when peeping does me good:)

what makes a blog enticing enough to be read?as a blogger even if not a frequent provider of stories i am, the urge of telling stories and anecdotes about ur life n perceptions would always be there.im one avid reader of blogs (esp when it is categorised as 'hot' blog..u get what i mean about tis later) and not in a day i stop reading blog or writing about it (even if for now im slacking of writing!!).ive started becoming a faith follower of blogging cult in the year of 2004 and basically the stories were only revolving about the relationship with my x (since he was on it too as well).and yes, the truth was, the blog in its starting point was deemed as private as only both of us knew the url to it (but heck to to that now!!).and ive never looked back.people who have chances to read mine might classify this as one rubbish blog as it talks nuthin useful (i did warn u peeps that mine cud be as gibberish as hell..just the way i like:).i would never ever deleted/transferred/cancelled my account in any way possible.ive read my life here in my own space.the ones that were forgotten are goin to be there in front of moi naked eyes.the ups and downs, the merry go round of life,u name it.call it as crappy as u want, but as long as i am able to still scribbling down words and emotions, i wont stop.so what do i discreetly reading anyway..?

acix's-i always love her stories about emot, and sum part of personal stories that has been told and to only later being transferred into words.i love her for her words on me, the ones that keep me going anyway.u are now in the bloggin cult, zarina:)

theyogainstructordiaries-personally, i dun know her,but yet again, i just love reading her 'twisting' and 'pretzel'ing her words.in a good way, yes.she's the celebrity yoga instructor as she being labelled to.and it is just enticing reading what the fun part of life that a yoga guru can turn to:)

lovemunchkins-this is poziah's.if u wanna have a dose of a motherly blog laden with sarcasm, u can get it all here.hahah.happy moving to the new crib, poziah!

pinkstiletos-she swears on herbalife n her post herbalife stories that keep me hooking with her blog.

nadya's-my cuzin.just stumble upon her blog.reading hers is like reading the updated stories of my aunt n uncle in terengganu:)oh n yes, she likes mine too.hhaha

i cud go on forever of which blogs that i secretly reading, be it celebrities, politician and normal beings.if ur life is such a downer n u need to divert ur attention to sumthin fun, i suggest..try digging urself on other people's blog.it's a cure!

finally:)

if i cud have sworn on..
f**k u both , loser bastards..

but i dun.

coz the stunned,flabbergasted look on 'his' face is more than enough.









it's priceless.

makan lagi..

what a day..we've spent the whole afternoon chitchatting at lina's place.sheeshh..i shud have taken a pic just to show u people our own version of parliament session.riuh tak hingat u ols!ahhaa..the best part is, our parliament is well completed with food!!actually it is the food who leads the way.lina brought kueh siput aka tat nenas keras 'kedekiang' (deriving from the experiment goes wrong.hahha..), behun and kepok leko.this does not include one whole tupperware of roti gardenia n its set of serawa courtesy of nyah.kenyang babe!its been a while since we last lepak like this and just have fun munching on food and savouring on gossips and such.tapi tak ngumpat ye:)skit skit je.i guess this gonna be the affair of wrapping up days towards the reaching of ramadan:) boleh ke macam ni?chit chat chit chat here which brought me to this...i shud have gotten home n pack my stuff n start the journey to kl.abah n mama are going to 'celebrate' ramadan with us all in kl.ta for now:)

the holiest.:)

ramadan..

is just around the corner.the holy month where u can actually be human n better servant of god.there are sooo many things ive long to do coming ramadan like fulfilling my terawih calls,cleansing the acts, cooking instead of pigging out etc.

to my dearest families and friends, fellow muslim sisters and brothers whom i know n yet to know, please forgive for all my wrongdoings.for whatever i do and say. im just a weak human being who sumtimes let the bad part of me doing most of the actions.if i ever cross ur path, trust me i didnt mean to do it the way i did, and if there are nother road to take, i would surely take it:).hope we are able to do ramadan to the max

sorry for everything and once again, salam ramadan from the frail me:)

the greatest guru.

life has been a great teacher.it teaches love will wilt,it teaches that people change, it teaches u the greater life ahead..the ones u never imagine u cud be.once ur in love, and in second ur out of it.once u are with sumone, and in second ur back to be alone.once ur top of the world, in a second uve been crashing hard to the ground.life is magic.i just need to know how to experience it wisely :)

peculiar me?

1.im crazy lookin at other's blogs. their stories intrigue me, their life fascinate me, their pics humor me :). i can keep on reading n reading for hours, for blogs that i dun even personally know the owner

2.i dig bubur so much.n i keep making bubur for afternoon tea n late supper.sedap ke tak letak tepi.even my apak pun naik heran he was once asked "buboq lagi???"

3.im in love wit meet uncle hussin n hujan.sound poyo je kan but dunno lah, feel the greatness of their songs, even tryin very very hard finding superfast downloaded sites to get their songs.

4.i can bable n nag my cat, mok for hours.like for today, we smelt poopie, n searchin where did mok went pooping, but to no avail.so in like every hour, i wud nag n berleter to him to practically tell me where the poops would be hidden.sheeshh..i must be losing my mind.

5.i 'seek' n 'find' new me.and i love it!cant believe i would totally love sth that i once despised

6.i superfuckin hate blu inc n its products.lamanya tak melucah!

7.i cringed to the word love, sayang, love and more love.it makes me wanna puke.seriously n it got nuthin to do with me n the stupid engagement.guess the hormone is back to balance.

sleepybum

gosh..im so sleepy albeit goin to bed early (if u cud call 3am early).been eyeing what wud get into my stomach later this afternoon.i got like 4 more days to go.kinda tiring fasting when people around u are hungrily chomping n gobbling on food.i was half awake tis mornin in my mornin class, tryin hard to make myself conscious to the kids.(dun even care much for latecomers today).gosh lyn..it's only 11am.u are so lack of sugar!

where does the good go

love is for those who blessed.i would not be the best person or neither do i in the perfect position to even begin talkin about love.but it coudnt stop me for being happy, at least for sumone else's love affairs.my long time friend from perlis, who just managed to walk out from her wrecked marriage, might finally find the one.we had a very long talk about her probability to begin another serious committed relationship.i know it aint easy to start trusting man after what had happened, believe me..when the love is murdered by the one u truly put ur trust, u had nowhere to turn to.that maybe..in the beginning of sprung into life again.but i believe her to have extra efforts to handle the blossomed relationship.funny is, she finds him just the exact way i found mine.and these are what i told her..
it is okay to be afraid
it is okay to be terrified of the unknown
it is okay to be prejudiced coz not all people around us are dealing with the same phase of life
it is okay to be in love again becoz love itself is about discovering the bitterness in life
it is okay to cry once in a while when u start comparing the one that went away n the one that makes you his princess
it is okay to smile upon promises
it is okay to feel stupid when things do not get ur way

and for all the unanswered questions would be answered later, believe me.just look back on the diary ive used to write
i noticed that life was much better and easier when you have less to think about. not about money, not about hurting hearts, not about being hurt, not about succumbing to people's need.that was just, being free. but life ain't easy. as clock is ticking, you gonna be bombarded with lotsa questions.
like...
would i make a right choice?picking up this man?i dont know. that was exactly the question i've yearned somebody to answer.it's a bit tricky.tis sort of question you would know better, not anybody else. God, i wish i would just be shown some ways, low or high, whether to pick this man is the noblest act i will do. please, help me.
23 july 07
and i got the answer in no less than a year.i so feel you my dear friend

i find me

haha..i need to find 5 more people to create the cloning cult.appaling...eh?:)

ps: dear girl, sorry to post u in the blog...but my friends cudnt stop comparing us.hahha:)

sisa

Apa makna rasa itu padamu
Apa maksudmu segalanya ada pada diriku
Apa ceritaku tiada satu kau teramat perlu
Apa yang kau lihat itu seadanya aku

Benar satu itu ada padanya
Benarkah kau terfikir itu tiada padaku
Benarkan aku buktikannya itu pada dirimu
Benarkan dirimu fikir kemungkinan itu.. ooo

Mungkin kaukan terseksa jika bersamaku
Mungkin jua kau kan sesalinya seumur hidupmu
Mungkin jua suratannya begitu
Mungkin aku bukan yang kau kenali dulu

Benar segalanya ada padaku
Pernahkah kau terfikir itu tiada padamu
Benarkan aku buktikannya itu pada dirimu
Benarkan dirimu fikir kemungkinan itu.. ooo

Mungkin kau kan terseksa jika bersamaku
Mungkin jua kau kan sesalinya seumur hidupmu
Mungkin jua suratannya begitu
Mungkin aku bukan yang kau kenali dulu

(sisa:nitrus 2007)

the day i feel like a gladiator

pic:courtesy of gossipboutique.blogspot

tell me where i can buy these uber gorgeous shoes which meant to be worn with tiny superduper micro mini skirt, yet that got to be no problemo coz u know u are still beautiful no matter what u are wearing.okay, off the crap.anybody, if u ever come across this pahlawan roman shoes, do tell me.it looks good here..well at least on the model's feet:)

i so love mockery

i so want to love + hug+ kiss+ coddle those who create this contemptuous mug wit its malign remarks.ha ha ha!!! so do i get this for my post birthday gift..anyone?

corazon roto..

i don't need your affection
i don't need your thought
i don't need your intention
i don't need your warmth
i don't need you

colours part 2..

the replacement killer..!

ok so what is all about fair and square in love and war? no im not talkin about my relationshipless..but im talkin bout the job ere.see, we had this anugerah kidmat cemerlang (APC)given to those lucky gov servants (hell...looo..they've gotten like rm1K okayy?).so we were the host of the event.and being so ever popular with those perkara perkara la'gho ni, i was again appointed to handle the show.just this time i was involved in poem recital.thats not the point here.what i try to POINT IT OUT here is that the event took place on MONDAY where the students were all given HOLIDAYS! n we were not since we were workin our a** out to run the event.okay what's the point again u ask? the main point here is that we need to REPLACE that gone monday in the coming saturday.what the..we are replacing for what?we came to work on monday anyway.who asked the kids to go home??i have plan.people have plan.stop treating us like we have no matters n family to care of.geram aku.in the meantime..here are the pixie.(masa ni tak sakit hati lagi :)

better in time

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile
cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

leona lewis (better in time , 2007)

colors..

if whatever shows potray the feeling within..

another painful day..

it's no longer than 24 hour i posted a story bout moi wounded shin, and now i am down with fever n very dry throat.what's next???

but the again..kesakitan adalah penghapus dosa dosa kecil as i remembered reading.:)

the day when the pain is bearable.

it was the regular sunday.as we had not planned of going out, plus it was drizzling outside, syida and moi suggested that we had our cooking session.it's been a while since i last cook..well to the matter of fact that it's been a while since i last got myself back on track.so off to the kitchen we went, n i kept on imagining yesterday's gulai ikan tenggiri.so to cut the story short, as i was transferring the ikan (it was the only piece left on the periuk actually) along with its tomato n bendi to another glass bowl, it exploded.okay...so exploded might sound harsh, but it aint funny when it came with the open wound n swollen part was as big as the ping pong ball.at first everything was ok.i wasnt panicky or anythin, funny thing was i tried cleaning up the mess while syida was astounded with the wound and whats with the blood that keep gushing out.went to the toilet, washed it, rubbed sum gamat oil onto it, wrapped it up with tissue n cellophane tape.well thats what i always do when handling wound n such.but never i imagined that it cud swell to the size as a pingpong ball and as syida put it, the wound was kinda smiling widely.ha ha funny !but later when i finished my zohor prayer n took out the self made bandage, there it was.syida asked me to seek for medical help.as it was sunday, the clinics were all closed.hello...doctors!do u guys have regular hours when people supposedly fall sick?so there is one clinic, but i was so close to strangle the doctor since he refused to do anything (well mind you, since the wound was kinda open n 'smiley' he was afraid it cud be infection n needed to be x rayed).so again.we went straight to ER in hospital besar.the wound was cleaned, but again the nurse afraid the glasses might got into the wound, so she asked me to go for a thorough x ray.as i was waiting my turn, as i sit there alone, all sorts of emotion coming to me. and as i promised not to let any tears drop, it disobeyed me.
it's much better seeing blood that u can touch than ones that u know u cudnt see.
as for the wound, ive got myself three stiches n lotsa love from people who deserve me.

any given sunday

i woke up this morning, expecting the emptiness and gush of sorrow just like i normally feel.but as i opened the eyes, it was another stream of mixed feeling that hit me.the feeling of calmness that i never expected to feel before.
it was the sunday.the wedding day.
it just that there is no wedding.
i jump off the bed, while my 2 sister were still sleeping soundly.i took a minute to scan the whole room, seeing that it doesn't change after all.i went to the living room, seeing abah just got back from buying breakfast, like he always does.upon watching me, he stroked my head slowly, and took me in his arms, hugging me tight.there is no word completing his acts, in just a moment i realized there are tears coming down after all.but i know it's not the tears of regretting, just the tears of realization that sumhow i cudnt make them happy.i hugged mama, soothing her, saying that this is the way God tested us, so be it.
i just can't believe i cud be this strong.i thought this sunday would be different. i thought i would just lock myself in the room and cry, pitying out life that hasn't been fair to me.
i guess God listens to my prayer, that i wanna be stronger and happier.
to the only man that is there in my heart, who gave me love and took it away, i pray God makes you stronger too.
this too...shall pass.

savage garden.

there was a garden..not exactly a garden of eden.but they like it there.both of them just love everythin they saw.colourful flower, gushing winds, cold stream of water.everything was perfect.nobody says no,everybody can be happy.she was happy, that was the moment of her life.she has never been in the garden full of flowers before.it made her terrified to just touch the flowers.it was so magnificent it made her scared.but he said okay.u can have all the flowers u want, these all being planted for u.she was unsure.but she lay there happily anyway.but he wasnt happy.he looked at the flowerbeds being destroyed.he looked at the stream of water where she just put her feet.it made him uneasy.he planted all these..why can he endeavour these first before she ruined it.so he said nay.he didnt want to stay in the savage garden anymore.it made him uneasy.he cudnt bear looking at the wilted flowers, the ruined flowerbeds.so he walked..walked n walked n keep on walking.she was left standing, with a flower in her hands, the one where she keeps on holding since the first time they came to the garden.the unwilted flower.

curtain

don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not
when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
but you put on quite a show
you really had me going
but now it’s time to go
curtain’s finally closing
that was quite a show
very entertaining
but it’s over now
go on and take a bow

-rihanna-

...

kita hampir ke situ (mendua & the lima)

Aku sadar bukan mudah
Untuk mengejar mimpi indah
Pernah suatu ketika dulu ku punya
Harapan besar
Kini aku tak pasti
Dapatkah ku miliki

Sudah jauh kita temu
Kekalkanlah impian lalu
Mungkin ada hikmah yg akan menunggu di penghujung jalan
Biar nanti kecewa
Setidak-tidaknya cuba

*korus

Jika halangan menduga
Perjalanan kita
Janganlah kau putus asa
Kerna ku ada di sisi
Setia menemani
Andai semangat mu gugur
Genggamlah tanganku
Kita hampir ke situ

Adakala ku terasa
Ketabahan tak setegah
Tetapi apakan andainya
Berhenti separuh jalan
Percayalah padaku
Aku yakin kita mampu

Biar orang katakan
Rapuhnya harapan
Bukan mereka tentukan tapi
Kau atau aku
Tandaku punya kamu
Apa telah akhirnya
Tetap bersama

u n i both

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me?while things are gonna happen naturallyOh, taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side And balancing the whole thing.Oh, but at often times those words get tangled up in linesAnd the bright light turns to nightOh, until the dawn it bringsAnother day to sing about the magic that was you and meCause you and I both lovedWhat you and I spoke ofAnd others only read ofOthers only dream of, of the loveOf the love that I lovedSee I'm all about them wordsOver numbers, unencumbered numbered words;Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words.More words than I had ever heard, and I feel so alive.Oh,then you and I, you and INot so little you and I anymoreAnd with this silence brings a moral story More importantly evolving is the glory of a boyCause you and I both lovedWhat you and I spoke of (of, of)And others just read ofAnd if you could see me nowWell, then I'm almost finally out ofI'm finally out ofI'm finally deedeedeedeedeedeeWell I'm almost finally, finally Well I am freeOh, I'm freeAnd it's okay if you had to go awayOh, just remember the telephoneswell, they work in both waysBut if I never ever hear it ringIf nothing else I'll think the bells insideHave finally found you someone else and that's okayCause I'll remember everything you sangCause you and I both loved What you and I spoke of (of, of)And others just read of and if you could see me nowWell, then I'm almost finally out of I'm finally out ofI'm finally deedeedeedeedeede Well I'm almost finally, finallyOut of words

taking chances

dear god..give me faith, give me strength, give me what's mine.i want him so much, but im letting him go if that what makes him happy.to love sumone is to make him happy.to make him happy is to let him go.
through the pain, through the endurances, through all the misunderstanding, u have been my teacher.thanks for all the wonderful years, not even single day would i take it as misery.
i just feel sorry i cudnt be the one who held u up, who held ur hands when u are down in the shitholes, i want to be there, to be happy, to be with you.but i was defeated.
u deserved to be happy, even ur happines means im not part of it.



i lose.

healer she's not

wedding should be joyful, glorious, the utmost happiest path in sumone's life.
but why do i feel im losing myself n everything in between?

i leave everything in His hands

one wit the fat ass

does anyone have shrinking pills where it could marvelously turn your body to be skinny n fit nicely in ur wedding gown coz i seriously feel im getting F.A.T....!!! not good.especially when there is a wedding coming up~

the one with no dress to wear

halo peeps..it was a very very tiring n longgggg weekend.i mean..physically n emotionally.zaire n i spent our weekend driving home..mind you..driving home to perlis by using his car(since i havent got the time to send kbl for a service).we just planned of goin home in a very last minutes actually.brought zaire to butik cindai klasik for dress fitting session(being a worrywart i am..takut tak sempat nak alter baju bulan lima), but too bad he couldnt find the one he likes which are compatible to the one ill be wearing (im donning a pink modern kebaya for bersanding.im sooooo like it.tengok lapan kali pun still suka lagi.hahah).the problem is that i bought my own baju bersanding.u know..to be delivered to the generation to come..hahahh.but not his.bukan lupa nak beli skali or what.i bought the kain far away in jakarta.so bila dah balik buat n everything, baru nak cari baju dia, n he doesnt even plan to tempah since dah tempat for akad (we are wearing white for nikah).so i needed to bring him home for the fitting session la.as i said earlier,takde pulak baju pink yang menawan hati..so what the heck..he needs to accompany again then in april.

the lil invitation

i did half of the accounting work yesterday...well,budgeting the wedding tat's it.it's not tat i didnt do it earlier (since most peeps say the most crucial part of marriage is managing the budget n all), it just needs a few more revision.pening jugak kan..no wonder people get headache planning the marriage n all.zaire wants me to give him the number of guests that abah wants to invite.tis is another matter.see..i am seriously considering to order the card from this tiny lil shop i found in Jakarta last month.it was more than great.it is gorrrrrrrrgeous!!what's with the pink color n pink ribbons n all.it was love at the first sight.the problem is..zaire's uncle is planning to fund the cards.yeah it is great, only if i know how the card would look like.

the mad lady is back

ho yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........i retrieved my ol blog SUCCESFULLY!!!!!
welcome...rambling n stuffs!!!!

raya?

im counting daysss to raya!goin home, no matter how bad the condition wud n cud be, i still love my home.that comfy sofa, thos plasma tv, that unglamorious toilet, that berserk roo..i just love everything back home.now that raya is just around the corner, n i cud only call to ask for the updates.well,looking that abah kinda bz repainting the house (paen said sth about having warna keladi??).me, ina n aten wud only be goin home this saturday since ina got her work finish at 1 am on friday.so rise n shine baby.but to be honest dude..i dun really feel the vibe of raya.well, maybe that im gettin older n older every year, n maybe that derived from all the tense at home.i dunno, i just wanna go back to that comfy home again.