selfish and the sad cat

I know I should have trusted my instinct, every time I was being apprehensive to bring Hampri back to Kuantan. Deep inside me, I know taking him away from Mokey is never a good idea and it is rather a messy affair. How could you have the heart to separate those 2 felines who have been together since they were just little kittens and when they are in the process of growing up, you snatched their privileges. I did, I had those heart and now I feel so bad. I mean it.

Hampri has not been his usual self, well he does main tangkap tikus with the toy I bought him, but during the day, he would just mop around and seclude himself under my bed. And it is heartbroken to see his untouched food tray. I have this hideous feeling that he is not eating the whole day and the reason is me. He is under a lot of stress. Who could blame him, when all of sudden being dragged away from his cat mate.

He must curse me lots for this.:(

And this morning, I woke up seeing blood on the shape of paws every where in the house. The living room, my room, the kitchen. Greeting and kissing him first thing in the morning are part of my daily fix, but today he was just looking at me, not trying to move or anything. He whimpered when I tried to carry him on my lap. Imagining something worst, I've checked his paws and noticed that it was bleeding and oh my did I just see a piece of glass stucked in between his paws?!!

I was closed to burst out. Stupid of being emotional but the feeling was undeniable crazy. I felt bad of him being sick, even wanted to take the day off and brought him to the vet right at the moment. No wonder he wasn't being so playful last night. Not when your paws are bleeding and a piece of glass is sticking out :(. I knew this because I even tried to take the glass out but Hampri kept trying to dig his claws onto my skin.

Brought him to a government veterinary clinic in Kuantan that afternoon. A nice government clinic, that one. The receptionist was helpful enough over the phone ( I was freaking out and calling them couple of times to confirm that there would be a doctor and she keep assuring me to just bring Hampri over, mesti dia ingat aku gila under pressure huhu..) and nice too, way more peramah than the private clinic I went for Hampri's grooming earlier. The good thing is, Hampri didn't even mengamuk when he was brought into the inspection room. He winced in the beginning , and started to move and hide under my tudung., Aiyoooo adik!

And no, it was not a glass but he broke his nail and the nail was the one stucked within the paws. Not helping that he was having a bit of fever too. And yes, he was under stress, he will lost his appetite because he needs and misses his partner and there would be no medication to cure but to bring him back to Mokey (vet cakap macam tu, terus aku rasa nak nangis. Kesiannyaaaa Hampri:(. Cucuk ubat sikit, put some iodine on his cut and he is good to go. Hopefully the nail will grow fast sebab I could still see blood on the floor:((

Hampri, I love you a lot. You are the reason I smile and laugh for these past weeks.I am sorry for being so inconsiderate but to let you go is one hard thing for me too. I want you to be your 'happy' self again but sometimes I want to make 'me' happy, more. Selfish, I know.

Please get better okay? Breaks my heart to see you like this:(