raya?

im counting daysss to raya!goin home, no matter how bad the condition wud n cud be, i still love my home.that comfy sofa, thos plasma tv, that unglamorious toilet, that berserk roo..i just love everything back home.now that raya is just around the corner, n i cud only call to ask for the updates.well,looking that abah kinda bz repainting the house (paen said sth about having warna keladi??).me, ina n aten wud only be goin home this saturday since ina got her work finish at 1 am on friday.so rise n shine baby.but to be honest dude..i dun really feel the vibe of raya.well, maybe that im gettin older n older every year, n maybe that derived from all the tense at home.i dunno, i just wanna go back to that comfy home again.

rejoicing Ramadhan! (with food)

it's been a fourth day of ramadan, meaning that ive been spending money on thos food that left uneaten.i know this gonna be one absendminded act as holy ramdhan supposedly teach us to not be boros n spend money whenever u got growling stomach.just like yesterday, i ended up buying ikan bawal which was half than being eaten, sata (4 pieces altogether which ended up being in a garbage plastic) n few more side dishes which im not supposed to buy since i hardly ate all of em.if this all about lusting over food, guess i can never say no to.im a small but frequent eater.i got hungry easily from time to time.and as for the ramadhan, we the girls have been setting up plan to go out n have superlicious break fast hour.like today, adeline said she wanna treat four of us to Secret Recipe.yum yum,and acik, being her birthday coming up next week, wanna having the same deal n we gonna hit kenny rogers tmorow.next week, Kak Nor has this funtastic idea about having our break fast at this Chinese restaurant nearby Grand Cont.em emm...how' s that for a first week of Ramadhan? :)

real women have curves..

there..the title of my eversodepressing blog wud hopefully sumhow help me regarding to my weight consciousness.well not that im being spending times thinkin whether i cud be a bit thinner than this, it just the matter that, it wud be great if i am blessed wit a flat tummy, nice shape of gorgeous leg, structured arms n smaller breasts (im not supposed to put it down, but anyway..this my blog!).i am not scrutinizing myself, infact im glad im kinda shrinkin these years, but looking at ur own reflection in the mirror every morning wud eventually bring one consensus,'u are one lazy lady, miss!' u keep on scrutinizing ur body, commenting here n ther, but u done nothing in return.
well,i did carry out actions, i went to gym, been on the treadmills for hours, swearing on yogurts n cursing on carb, waking up early every weekend just for the matter to jog freely, buying myself a rope so i cud do skipping, panting myself to every movements of raina's belly dancing and so forth.but why cant there be a miracle to my figure?
so back to the topic (which evidently true, n the topic is from one HBO's original movie indeed), i believe we are yet to be the real women, because the real women are those who believe in curve and fat that there are blessed for.

angel

we were having our shopping spree in KLCC, which mostly that was me doin the shopping, then it was raining hard.pretty hard.i was actually goin home to kuantan, n the car was park way far from the park.he did all his best, stopping every taxi n asking em whether they cud commute us to the parking spot which was merely just few hundred metres away.all for the matter of not lettin me caught cold n influenza.
It was again in the park of KLCC, i hadnt have chances to pour whatever i felt inside, all the commotion of sadness for the lost of my dearest angah.And i barely knew him, but here infront of him, i washed away tears, lotsa them.The first time since the day of angah's funeral, i knew i had sumone who i can talk to.his gestures were enuff.
he was the one who worked very hard to find me tailor, when i cudnt find even a single person who could sew my clothes for my Raya masquerade. God knows how happy i was back then, knowing i cud parade with my opel baju kurung.
my friends knew im fond of Hayao Miyazaki's work, the creator of Spirited Away and Totoro. but being penniless i am always, i cud only buy a cd per outing, n the rest, i asked him to do the pirating process. he did the most suprising thing, no not doin the downloading thingy, but presented me a complete box of original Hayao's series.
It was a third day of Raya,he boarded the bus a nite before, reaching Perlis, met my parents, n getting the bus back to Johor the very same day.

then if all these good things he had done to me, why cant i be his angel for once?

the wedding...!!

since it is a wedding frenzy ere n ther, i now enclose u the pics of musab's wedding.yeh..thos a'la bollywood style :)

14 April 2006

HAPPY PEOPLE!
happy anniversary to us..cant believe it's been 3 years now since we first started lecturing.how things change.how people come n go.how life surrounded with students give sum meaningful insight.thanks for being the wonderful crews.n thats blue for us!

tagging tagging..let's do writing!

taggin??well not really know about it but used to hear the word before.so gee tagged me (had no idea how to tag n be tagged tho), n these i present u all the fours for ur pleasure of reading!

Four (latest) jobs I've had:
1) workin as my father's secretary in his office (which my job required me to take orders n talk over the phone all days.i like...even the pay was ciput.ehhe..
2) tuition teacher-i taught form 3 studts.not bad, except for the pay (again..!)
3) matric lecturer-guess educating ppl is genetically flows in my brain
4) sum glamorious jobs in the future perhaps??being tai tai?i wish!

-Four movies I can watch over and over:
1) my best friend's wedding - cameron diaz was wayyyyy lovable!
2) y tu mama tambien -ha ha...raunchy!
3) spirited away- animaniac i am.i know.i simply love ghibli's product.
4) romi n michelle high school reunion-i were michelle..if that a case..:)

-Four TV shows I love
1) america next top model -all seasons.the bimbos and the brain never get intact.they cant even pronounce issey miyake for modellin' sake!
2) everybody loves raymond-shud i tell ya peeps over and over again tat frank barone is discreetly my idol?
3) desperate housewives-yes im on the bandwagon.
4) all reality tv series that have the bitchiness in its programme.

-Four places I've vacationed
1) danok, chieng mai, thailand- mostly for the purpose of wasting money.
2) medan, indonesia- i was in love n had huge crush on our tourist guide.haha
3) pedu lake, kedah-one of the most amazing, serene hideout place ive found so far.
4) singapore-love every single day of it

Four of my favorite dishes (in no particular number of preferences.im not a picky eater)
1) nasik lemak makcik at pasar malam MEC gambang (unglamorious place but the nasik was beyond words! been her regular every thursday tho)
2) mama's sambal udang n sambal tumis ikan bilis-when to see me piggin then tis is the time
3) chicken rice shop's beansprout-emm emmm...crunchy enuff to make it as snackin option
4) moi spaghetti bolognaise -:)

Four sites I visit daily:
1) friendster.com -appreciate the ol ones, cherish the new ones..
2) forum.cari.com-well resourceful web.from food to gossip, travellin to books.anything!
3) myspace.com-refer to #1 review..ill be using the same anecdote
4) blogs-gee's, nini's (theyogainstructordiaries), n zaire's.love readin their written mind

Four places I would rather be right now:
1) apartment-im so much in needed of lustful sleep!
2) kangar-still not gettin over the homesick disease
3) any dental clinic-this stupic tooth is killing me
4) nowhere-id rather be infront of the pc n complete the tag.ehhehe

4 bloggers I am tagging
geez....im still learnin the meanin of taggin for god sake!

my ache

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....sakit gigi nih.argh argh argh

the day i want to curl up and die

so im overeacting.for the title yes indeed.but thats my mundane expression.it would be a day when u feel u cant laugh for jokes, u wanna cry but there would be no tears n u feel ur life is just one pathway to heaven..or hell perhaps.no i dun have any innerself issues if u wanna label me crazy.i just dun feel good.u know?'those' feeling comes n washes u.thats that.pronto.or maybe it becoz it's nearly the end of semester, or probably becoz its my menstrual cycle.whatever.

the visit

now that he's finally came n the curtains fall, it coveted the work nonstop.i wudnt even wanna be the usher ever again.not that i cant even remember the face of those vvip n vip, just the matter its tiring askin n ushering em to have their comfy seats whilst u stood watchin frm the beginning.well, as for eye candy n as for the cherry on the top, now i present u.. ( do refer the pic above..it's supposed to be after this short ramble..duh!)
he was smashingly hot, amid been drenched in sweat.me n zarina??yeah we did have spotlight on the both parts of our cheeks!

1o 'weirdo' acts of moi u dun know about (just becoz i dun know what other craps shud i paste in my blog.ha ha)

1) i cant sleep in a messy bed, meaning, i have to tarik the cadar sampai kemas then later i can land on it happily.stupid enuff yes indeed since u would eventually mess it even more.

2) i cant go out without havin the colored lippie, even the taintest color of gloss would do. i would be looking so pale ppl mistaken me of recovering from flu if i have none of it.believe me, it happened before.

3) i love to drive.maybe i am born to be a driver.i used to drive bout 400 km back to perlis, got 15 mins rest n back behind the wheels again for nother 150 km to penang

4) only god knows how super duper sensitive moi cud turn out to be. i watched simba the lion king n cried sheepishly in the cinema.n so other dramas, so other movies, n so other songs. i hurt easily.

5) i am a very very picky shopper. picky in the terms that i cud have window shopping for hours, coming back n forth to the same shop, picking it up, scrutinizing like a mad scientist n ending it up by not buying it afterall. it takes forever to make a simple decision.ask my sis. she hates me doin that.i mean..for taking her time too much only on surveying things.

6) i used to worship spice girls, n even used to save money so that i cud watch them live in action if they ever made it to malaysia.used to paste their posters everywhere in the room,used to master their dance routines, even an avid user of their Impulse spray perfume, even bought their DVD's concerts.i am indeed.. still in love wit the gurls.i am a wannabe.hahahha

7) i cant wear crease clothes. i feel incomplete, feel unprepared.i can repeatedly iron my clothes over n over again. used to take good 2 hours to make the crease on my baju kebaya less visible.

8) i love catsssss so much.but im not a good keeper of em.i used to take the 12 hrs ride of goin home to perlis, n return bck to kuantan all in 24 hrs just becoz i wanna see my dying cat Tam Tam.in short, i do crazy things for all it takes if it includes my fav pets

9) i am a photo freak.ask my buddies, ill be ready if u got the camera on.hahahha

10) i.... (now do finish the sentence for me if u know sth weird i havent notice bout moi before :)

all about the L words

love..aint it so ever be so unfathomable?

James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover Lyrics

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

all about the workin out

im startin the joggin routine again!after past months been neglectin the only routine that ensure me to burn all the extra baggages, now im bck on track,well literally.cant believe what i got myself into for these past few weeks.ive been piggin on food, not really care bout gainin weigh whatsoever like i used to.all the upsetting phases of my life all lead to the calories whopping i guess.n goin home to momma's house was like being the cherry on the top.havent been stop eating since then, im always in the hungry mode.even tokwas, one of the colleague ere was amazed of my ability (capability?)of munching food caters for two.ha ha.so i made this 'resolution', that all the baggages have to go!i need to tone my arms' muscle, it is soooo flabby it has been jokes to lenny n acik, n my thigh, n my stomach.goshh..i cant even bring myself to wear baju sendat sendat anymore.so, arming with acik (t' was her idea to hit the gym, n mind to hit the track), we went for our first jog on sunday mornin.yeah, when u still under the comfy blanket we were like squeezing the sweat from the unwanted fat.managed to finish bout 3 rounds n stop for a breakfast (guilty again!!..it was kinda heavy.now helloooo to few more kilojoules).tat afternoon, we hit the gym n been tryin the machines at once.n know what?now that i have the excruciating pain on the thighs and a small clogged blood on my feet it still not dampen the mood of shoving all those kilos.hope this not gonna be one nite devotion.hehe.

again

yeah it is me..wit my sis at one of the shopping complexes im talkin bout.spending almost few hours n resulting in nuthin actually.cant really force myself to splurge since the currency exchanged keep on ringing its bell.duhh.we went out for dinner at one of the local food stop.ordered fried mee n milo..heaven sake it was too much to take.the portion was huge n i had to share it.they even had thos typical pasembor easily found in penang.again, it's all about the portion that im worried bout.ha ha.im not a big eater i wud say.oh oh the pixture on the left was actually the aquarium.so likely aquaria but it is in the shopping complex.go figure.

we went for the knickknacks hunting for the next day.the target?yeah u guess it right. arab street n bugis street.buying myself a nice short jacket, bein envied n pursued by ina till now.no wayy im lettin it to be borrowed, cost me about 20 dollar n yeah, a string of pearl necklace bout 5 dollar. n for thos chickas back home, found them sth as well.last spot was to go lepakin at sentosa, watching that magical fountain n lazyin watchin the sunset went down at siloso beach.heaven.

across the border

hay.. can u see me?welcome to the merlion city.at last, the much awaited plan has been fulfilled.cant really describe how much work and energy have been digested for the trip to be a reality. and thus...i think i enjoyed everythin thruout the vacation.well almost..except a few heartwreckin parts. i might not be a good story teller becoz i believe sum memories are better laid in mind (i am so lazy to actually scribbling words), well but for ur pleasure of reading i'll try to spend my precious mins jottin down a few.
singapore is a well developed city i would say. even small in size, u cud see that the development n the system are fully expansed.just imagine that inside the cab we rode it was even a swipe machine for ur precious credit card!n the taxi, mind u, just look frighteningly similar like us.we went straight to the hotel, checkin in n drove around town to find the tourist spot. gosh..and the tourist spot they meant were basically the plazas and shopping complexes!cant really remember we were we actually, it cud be takashimaya, far east plaza, the atrium becoz what we did were to keep on walkin along the alleys, tunnels and zebra crossings. their shoppin complexes are well structured where u can get to the next plaza by only walkin thru the underground tunnels.superb!goshhh..they were rushing me for quick lunch. get bck to this later!

there are still good people around

everything happens is because of the Godwill, so when i face so much trouble regarding to my pasport application, i know i would never make my holiday trip to the end.you see, i skipped my work in kuantan (even we are actually not doin anythin coz it is an exam week afterall), drove approx 295 to kl, n queueng for almost 2 hrs just to get the number, all in order to get my pasport done. after all the ruckus with ina's birthcert, it was me who being stopped in the middle.ok to make the story clear, i went to kl to make my pasport becoz we are planning to have a singapore visit for the upcoming hols.the first problem is when ina left her birth certificate at home, and only later being told when we reached the counter.so for the second attempt, about a few weeks later, armed with complete form, n berth cert, we went back to kajang to make it done, only then to know that i was the one who having all the trouble becoz i cudnt proceed doin the pasport, becoz i got my own before!how cud i know, it was 10..11 years back n only god knows where my dad placed all thos pasport.he cudnt even recall his, much about mine.so i was devastated, too upset to do anything instead of calling my mum bck in perlis to find me thos pasport. u see , the trouble is, we had already bought the tickets, n it was on the 25th jan, n the period of making pasport would take u 3 days. so it left me with not many choices instead of askin my mum to find it for me. i was so helpless.determine that there cud be sth i can do to rectify the situation, i drove to shah alam, with zaire(im sorry huny i have to drag u with me), made the police report , went to the commissioner of oath n then later ' begging' the officer to give me chances of having the pasport done in that period of time.n he obliged!thus that was the turning point for that day.i cudnt say enuff of thankful notes for all the help that i got, to the guards who been really helpful, the officers who not at once smirked or showed they were pretty much annoyed with me askin things, to my mum n aten who spent time searchin for my lost pasport back home, n to him for wanting to spend his worktime with me. im soo blessed to have this people when the situation itself already brought me close to tears.thank u.

and a party to kick start a day..

im bloating..literally!we had a pot luck party early this mornin, where we are asked to bring sum food n drink to accomplish the theme.i brought hors d oeuvre, emm..a cold platter to be exact.well..mind me im so lazy to prepare a good meal i ended up bringing over the starter instead.so as early as 9 am we are like crazily munching over food.i shud have taken sum pics to be kept!

adios '05!hola 06!!

assalamulaikum n hello people.it is 14 official days since 05 bid farewell for us.guess it's not that too late to say happy new year to all people who faithfully been the readers of my blog.i know sum of my words in the blog might as well unintentionally break hearts of ppl around.but as i said in my earliest page, this would be basically what i pour straight from the heart, so mind the crap n gibberish stories ive had unfold here.
so that 06 has arrived, i dun have any intention of writing my resolution coz i know im not the person who keeps up her resolution till the end.i even broke the resolution just a min i said i want to fulfil it.but there are few things i would rather change or add.

throughout the year of 2006, i 'resolve' t0:
1)being less emotional n overly sensitive for stupid reasons.n stop wasting those tears.i would try to come n rethink that every problem is passable thru time

2)stop act like a kid even i have a heart like a kid.it's time to move on n be mature over years.but cudnt really help if ppl mistaken me for an 18 year ol kid tho!(unless they realize the wrinkles that start to appear around the eyes)

3)be nice to people whom i know love me tender.be nice here by all means contacting em, askin bout their well being n such. i know ive been such a moron before, forgettin birthday n important date of people i love.

4)adding more friends in my circle of friends' list.rekindle the ol friendship, flourish the new ones..

5)stop quarelling that much with my mum

6)stop quarelling with him over stupid reasons n try not to be that big headed(as he puts it)

7)try to be a better servant of God (im no angel)

oh hoooo..n there are possession i would love to add..purchase or even take it as present (wink..wink!) for 2006!

1)rejuvenating myself in a mean of having holidays.cant wait for a singapore trip this january!!

2)a new guess or liz clairbone or LeSportSac handbags.i do need one bad!

3)a new dvd/mp3 player for my kelisa

4)a rank of clothes

5)a set of stila makeup consisting of its wonderful rouge pot of those classic gloss.mmmm...