Hari panas. Bukan summer.

Internet at the workplace is like real hazab. Maxis is the worse. Could not even make a call without having to stand next to the window. Kalau orang tengok dari bawah office macam pempuan  bercakap dengan bopren  on the phone, but this perempuan sudah ready to declare war with maxis. Nak cakap tepon je then i have to menyusup to these cubicles, finding a spot where barely a bar appears. It's getting worst la, hari tu dah pakat mengamuk, ni jadi balik. Stresss hoi. Celcom is nothing better, it is okay okay during daylight but coming home, sama jugak. Kalau dapat, dapat la. Nak loading his skype video pun bercinta. Oh hari ni gatal tangan nak update ios, then thinking i have jail broken mine, tak jadi.

Workload has been nothing but a nitemare. Got to speed a bit with the report writing coz some of the kids are going away for their athletic events god knows where. Keying marks here and there, and hunting those who are not taking those quizzes yet. Aku tak paham betul kids nowadays, like they care less if they take the exam or not. And what's more when it comes to quizzes. As what i remembered clearly back in my uni years, i would be the one going crazy chasing the lecturers for the quizzes, and even begged if it past the given date. Gelabah tak hingat. Ke aku je yang over gelabah? Reminded me that i cried at the phone booth talking to mom, ngadu  kes dr richard salah calculate markah and did not award the supposed correct answers. Esok pagi pagi dah bertunggu tangga kat depan bilik dr richard, his note and the answer paper in my hand. I fought for my right. And showed him his note and the part where he missed out my answers, and no further questions asked, i got the marks! The aftermath feeling, kerenyih tak ingat and donia ini ana yang punya..gituu..!. How i wish my kids would have the same feeling of struggle ness, bukan tunggu the lecturer chase after them for their OWN marks.

How i wish.

Something happened at the office today, i want to lash it out here but tak larat pulak nak type. Type lembab, but kalau verbal bercerita laju wooo. It just that from this morning incident, i learnt that..

If you are a leader, old or new, somehow in order to get things done, you can't just simply do it your way and terms alone. You are working with other human, try to respect their choice as well. Tak de salah ya kalau kita jaga hati anak buah, bukan just bagi arahan like your orders do not affect others.

Tapi tulah, not everybody is born a leader. You can lead but you are no leader. Sorry.