responsibleness:)

Dulu dulu, orang kata mata pen lagi tajam dari mata pedang. Tapi ikut zaman sekarang ni, aku rasa dah tak relevan kot. Sape je yang nak menulis guna pen kan? Semuanya pakat bantai ada blog, budak darjah satu pun gigih update letak gambaq pi camping bagai (err..bab update aku je yang tobat malas. Malas nak mengarang kerana I am born a verbal story teller gituuuu..). Youwols nak blog genre apa? Semua ada, tunggu ketik ketik, godek godek kat Google Chrome je. Nak cita seram? Nak gosip retis? Nak tau resepi ikan goreng kunyit?. Selagi ada permintaan, namely the readers, selagi tu lah bloggers nih akan menggigihkan diri tulis cerita. Kadang kadang sampai menipu, plagiat cerita orang. Sedap wooooo gosip gosip ni, Boleh naikkan traffic, boleh dapatkan income Nuffnang. Boleh dapat award berkoyan koyan. Tapi tulah, in the direction to be a good (famous, perhaps?) blogger, one does somehow miss out the important element, which is to blog responsibly.

Talking about being responsible, I was once closed (or was it really?) been in a bitter blogger feud with another blogger. It was all started from a very personal affair, me writing a piece of my mind  and regardless being a light piece of entry,  she was somehow took offense and incredulously pissed off ( what a wonder since I had not named names. Blog responsibly, remember? ). And what came next was bit  intensely ludicrous. She started her own blog entry on me, war through entries and up to the point that it was indeed became very very personal, ambushing on people's physical and such. In fact wishing that I would not ever get married. Ouch, cruelty.

Have I lose it? Have I let off the steam? When someone is targeting your personal being, I believe you are entitled to feel mad when boundaries were crossed. Oh boy, was i ever ready to pay revenge with my tart remarks. Through blogs, of course. Was I ready to retaliate, dismissing her nonsensical entry about me, and truly so fit to draw up thousands of cursing words at one go a sailor would be damn proud!

Yet, mom stopped me. My mom, one of my 'many' keen readers, who obligingly read every entries, no matter how rubbish it turns out. Mom, my 'entry-checker', who always on her reprimanding mode, every time an entry might sound too 'violent' with words, too harsh for her liking, and too 'open' for a normal mind to take. She bans (on my every day blog entry, mind you) my liking to use the word 'damn' or 'hell' and religiously cautioned that my big boss might read any of my blog entries (which I doubt he reads, my big boss that's it).

'You are a teacher, that's not how a teacher would write, no matter how personal your blog is. People read. Your students read. Your colleagues too.  Tak malu ka tulih pelik pelik?'

So I stopped, over my wrath and fury, to write my shit sheet of mind. I made myself free of guilt, and I retained my composure. What if I agitated, and the devil won, entries by entries to fight what I feel was right? Would it end here? I doubt it. We might still in the state of war. And hati yang sakit akan bertambah sakit, hence the peribahasa I said earlier. Kadang-kadang rasa physical attack tuh lagi bagus dari emotional attack, physical attack terus rasa dia punya sakit, biaq pi la lebam lebam, berbirat birat, tapi nampak kesan, puweh hati. Tapi kalu emotional attack via words, fuiiii makan dalam wooo.!!Selagi dok baca, selagi tuh la rasa gila babeng punya dendam. Betul dak? Betul la tuuuuuuu...


Okay coming to the ending of my discussion, my point is simple. Blog responsibly. Write by using mind, not your emotion. Whatever you write might come back to haunt you. There are so many blogs, so many rhymes, so many audiences out there. True, you might defend yourself, claiming this is a free country, if you don't like what you read, then buzz off. There are no pressures to read, I write what I feel, what I think. This is me me me ! But you might hurt others on your way to deliver your thoughts. Others, as this is a free country, have their freedom to enter your comment box too. And sometimes, it might be misled. Good blogger would never sway from his / her true intention. And whatever happens, he knows he is liable to any accusation.

And reading Hazrey's blog, I  realized I was wrong to share the video of a mom who abused her daughter. The video went viral, and I was so mad seeing the video I shared it on my FB account without second thought. Of course, it drew people to draw that 'like' buttons, and sama sama berjemaah untuk memaki hamun that abuser (even the fact that the case was reported last year and the mom is behind bar now, and the kid, alhamdulilah albeit traumatized, is still alive). Does that a right thing to do, condemning an abusive mother with harsh words who already pays the price (tuh dekat dunia, akhirat nanti dia kena jugak lagi). I am over mad at her, of course, tapi biarlah aku marah sorang sorang.  But I am not in my position to maki hamun her, and heret my FB friends to do the same. Tiba-tiba rasa diri sangat serba salah over my video post and dah berdosa buat macam tu and so, I deleted the video. Responsibility, would it be?


Anywaysssssssssss....for the rest of you, happy blogging and I will forever follow you, without a trace of course:)