guilty pleasure...or pressure..or both?

i ate like a pig...!geez..dunno what posses me that makes me gobble food extraordinaire.no...saya tak makan seekor lembu seorang diri..not like that.but those who know corak pemakanan saya akan sedia maklum that i dun eat much (not for the diet matter, but i kinda of guessin that my pintu perut dah mengecil.heh).or if i eat in the afternoon i wud stay full till the next day.betul!

tapi itu duluuuuu...

now i see food as sth marvelous..a pleasure..like if u dun taste it now u wud regret it later.but this does not base on grediness sebab i always feel hungry.why eh? for example..we went our for sushi outing on tuesday since it's RM2 per plate of sushi promotion.i got 2 plates of sushi and one whole set of piri piri chicken.bila balik rumah, dah start craving on nasik campoq sebab tgk serunding cikgu inson on the table.padahal yang tadi pun tak sempat hadam lagi aku rasa.and for yesterday, i ate 2 plates of different food for my breakfast, nasi lemak and behun goreng, got nasik campor for luncheon, sebemban plastik of goreng pisang in the late afternoon, and behun sup for dinner.well, not much u say? how bout i munched kuweh raya dari pagi sampai malam in between the heavy meals.dah jadik snacking mcm tu.there are lots!

i tink my devotion on food must derive from these few reasons:

1) im getting my period and will have my period in coming time.
2) i am stressful for unknown reasons.haishhh.i dun feel stress..but maybe im in stress.agaknya pak lah rasa mcm ni la gamaknya kann...?
3)i miss my mom.laugh all u want.but just spending time with her n apak last weekend feels like i am the only kid they have.hahaha..but i do miss her
4)i am having my period.definitely.